Hey I j/ wanted to say happy B-day to Phylicia and Terry( aka:Phylicious and Tyrannasoraus Rex) I did spend the whole day with you on your b day but yeah HAPPY BIRTHDAY weirdos!
Idk if you still have a live journal
anonymous
August 5 2010, 22:11:09 UTC
But i love you and i miss you and i think im starting to realize something again like you did....(when you left me) sux though like you said at one point it doesnt matter cause your not coming back - ive already lost you - thing is i think i already knew it just i kept focusing and try to keep focusing on the bad because i thought after 8 years as much love as we had for eachother and all the shit we went through together and for eachother that shit would be better i mean 8 years dude come on that is a very long time so you know it was love but for whatever reason our relationship didnt mature and we were both still a little crazy. (And the ugliness i had turned into...you didnt deserve that phylicia -You were too precious for that- i was selfish and i could never ever tell you how sorry or express how sorry i am for those things Phylicia. But I wont go any further with that dont want to bring up more bad memories you deserve to forget it and keep it in the past...like me.)And I just thought 8 years later we'd be better closer... I didnt feel like you were happy though phylicia i didnt make you happy like you loved me and You were happy cause you loved me but that was it as people we werent connecting anymore you were always in your phone or somewhere else in your mind well were standing right in front of eachother. We werent meeting eachothers needs and more than anything i wasnt taking care of you and you looked tired and worn out from everything in life in our lives...it was sad and i felt as worthless as i was not going anywhere there was nothing i could to do make it better for you...but your right i left...to be with someone else cause i thought it would be better...but i thought that was it for us i felt like i just didnt want to do anymore...and i always said love wasnt enough, and i really believed that but now i see that truly it really was enough cause my heart still belongs to you and it still beats bleeding you out through me just as strong as the first day i met you and it wont go away together or apart i can never get away from you - never get you out of my heart never...sry if that sounded like i was tyring to rhyme just came out like that....i lvoe you
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