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I don't know what to do with myself anymore... I just don't know what to do. I can't stop crying. I'm so depressed beyond belief. Nothing is working out for me, no matter what I try...
I begged God to take me out of my misery the other night... he didn't listen. I guess he likes watching my suffer.
WHY ME? I want to know what I've done SO bad in life? Really... what the hell did I do? No one knows half of it.. no one knows how bad it is... I don't show it all. I show people the happy smiling Alexis they all want to see...
I just want to close my eyes and have this be over. I need this to be over.. I'm tired of living like this.. I'm tired of being yelled at by my dad everyday for things I never did... for things I can't change. He puts me down more and more... I have to get out of here.. I just don't know what to do.
This is all I talk about, this is all I know right now is suffering in the hell hole I'm in, and no one wants to hear it anymore, none of my friends want to listen to me bitch anymore, I can see the boredom in their eyes.
Please let this be over.. please.... I can't take it anymore.
I begged God to take me out of my misery the other night... he didn't listen. I guess he likes watching my suffer.
WHY ME? I want to know what I've done SO bad in life? Really... what the hell did I do? No one knows half of it.. no one knows how bad it is... I don't show it all. I show people the happy smiling Alexis they all want to see...
I just want to close my eyes and have this be over. I need this to be over.. I'm tired of living like this.. I'm tired of being yelled at by my dad everyday for things I never did... for things I can't change. He puts me down more and more... I have to get out of here.. I just don't know what to do.
This is all I talk about, this is all I know right now is suffering in the hell hole I'm in, and no one wants to hear it anymore, none of my friends want to listen to me bitch anymore, I can see the boredom in their eyes.
Please let this be over.. please.... I can't take it anymore.