(no subject)
i dont understand how one minute everything can be perfect then the next minute ur single confused and didnt even have time to catch your breath and realize what just happened. bit by bit its coming to me. a year and a half we were together, thats crazy long (i think) and in 1 week everything we worked for and accomplished and a year and a half worth of memories just diappears. im so confused, like how this could happen or why it happened. i put everything into this relationship, gave it my all, tried my best to make us happy and bamm. idk, its just hard, maybe its for the best, but why did it have to happen so unexpectedly? couldnt i have gotten just a warning? why does he get to move on while im at square one still trying to catch my breath and realize what just happened? it just sucks that i didnt see it coming, and all of a sudden the person who you've known so well and loved with all your heart, the person that became your other half, just isnt feeling it and all of a sudden wants to move on. how does that happen anyway? how do you just lose feelings for someone? how do you love someone with all your heart for over a year and then in one week everything changes and you just dont anymore? i guess ill never know, i just need to handle it the best i can. i just want to move on, but its so hard, because i dont understand why im moving on, i dont understand why this happened and why it happened so quickly without a sign or warning or even an idea that it might happen. its hard to just accept the fact that the person you've cared so much about for so long just doesnt feel that way anymore, and why. its like how do i pick up where i left off, if i didnt even see it coming, if i dont know where i left off? its not even like he handled the situation maturely, he wouldnt give me the time of day to see him or talk to him. hes been treating me horribly, which makes the situation worse, when all i wanna do is talk it out and find out what the hell happened. every time i talked to him he just made me upset, and made me feel like im not good enough for an hour of his time or atleast an explanation. atleast be mature about it. i think after a year and a half i deserve atleast an hour of his precious time. i think i deserve an explanation on why he did this to me, instead of a bunch of "idks" i guess everything just happens for a reason, and this all happened for some weird twisted reason.
"Breakups are horrible, but to me, whats truly devastating is to feel like you werent even worth a breakup. Its natural to want to do something about that. But i guess the hope is that when a guy no longer wants to communicate with me, and doesnt have the manners or courage to tell me that to my face, hes given me all the information i need. Its the toughest one of all to put into practice. No answer is your answer. Don't give him the chance to reject you again"
im gonna get through this shit i know it, and i love all my friends i really would be nothing without you guys
"Breakups are horrible, but to me, whats truly devastating is to feel like you werent even worth a breakup. Its natural to want to do something about that. But i guess the hope is that when a guy no longer wants to communicate with me, and doesnt have the manners or courage to tell me that to my face, hes given me all the information i need. Its the toughest one of all to put into practice. No answer is your answer. Don't give him the chance to reject you again"
im gonna get through this shit i know it, and i love all my friends i really would be nothing without you guys