...n the special way i feel when you hold me
saw this on i think katie's journal and i figured i would get some things out too.
1) List 10-ish things that you want to say to people, but never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Never discuss it again.
1... It's you. it's always been you. from the first time our eyes met. as cheesy as it sounds, its true. i never believed in love at first sight until it happened. maybe that's why we've been continuously trying to make things work since 2 summers ago? i just wish i could tell you. but i dont wanna scare you off or anything like that. every love song that comes on the radio, every time i see that certain place, it all reminds me of you. all the little things you do just make my heart melt. and i think you have the best singing voice in the world by the way. and just everything about us seems so perfect, except for the fact that once again its always so hard to be able to see eachother like we want to. dont think it doesnt kill me, cuz it does. but you are everything ive ever wanted since day one. and i dont think ill really ever be able to explain to you how i feel. i love you.
2...you are my best friend. even though we've been in a couple fights and we both were ready to never talk to eachother again, i love you to death and i appreciate everything you've done for me. you've always had my back and always told me what you thought was best for me. and we of course always have fun together no matter what it happens to be that we're doing. best friends till the day we die girl! love you
3...i miss you. we havent talked in forever it seems. mainly because you are grounded and what not. but i miss you so much. we always are laughing at everything together and it kills me that i dont have that every lunch anymore. its really gay actually. hopefully i can talk to you soon!! love you
4...well i dont hate you anymore. but i can honestly say i did for a while. what you did to me was bullshit. and yeah i do believe my friends over you. so i still dont know exactly what all went down but i dont care to hear about it anymore. you tell you me still love me and miss me and whatever. but i just dont believe it because if you did then all that wouldnt have happened. we can be friends yeah, but i cant promise anything for the future.
5... i cant stand you guys anymore. this whole shutting me in thing and constantly dictating everything i do and say has gotta stop. all you guys do is push me away and make me wanna get outta here more and more. and it doesnt help that you dont really help me with anything at all. im a 16 year old girl trying to balance getting my grades up, working more now, paying for my brokedown car, my friends, and relationships all at one time. its not as easy as you seem to believe. and i just want you to know that eventually the freedom you dont give me is just gonna drive me away to the point where im gone.
6...i wish we still were as close as we were. we havent talked in quite a while it seems and i dont like it at all. we used to talk every day and do all kinds of shit. it kinda sucks that we barely even say hi in the hallways anymore. i know its mainly my fault because i dont have a lot of time for anything anymore, and if i do im with other people. but you're still one of my best friends and it hurts me that we arent nearly like we used to be.
damn that felt good. i think im gonna leave it at that tho. because im running out of time. so ill prolly update sometime in the next forever. byee
1) List 10-ish things that you want to say to people, but never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Never discuss it again.
1... It's you. it's always been you. from the first time our eyes met. as cheesy as it sounds, its true. i never believed in love at first sight until it happened. maybe that's why we've been continuously trying to make things work since 2 summers ago? i just wish i could tell you. but i dont wanna scare you off or anything like that. every love song that comes on the radio, every time i see that certain place, it all reminds me of you. all the little things you do just make my heart melt. and i think you have the best singing voice in the world by the way. and just everything about us seems so perfect, except for the fact that once again its always so hard to be able to see eachother like we want to. dont think it doesnt kill me, cuz it does. but you are everything ive ever wanted since day one. and i dont think ill really ever be able to explain to you how i feel. i love you.
2...you are my best friend. even though we've been in a couple fights and we both were ready to never talk to eachother again, i love you to death and i appreciate everything you've done for me. you've always had my back and always told me what you thought was best for me. and we of course always have fun together no matter what it happens to be that we're doing. best friends till the day we die girl! love you
3...i miss you. we havent talked in forever it seems. mainly because you are grounded and what not. but i miss you so much. we always are laughing at everything together and it kills me that i dont have that every lunch anymore. its really gay actually. hopefully i can talk to you soon!! love you
4...well i dont hate you anymore. but i can honestly say i did for a while. what you did to me was bullshit. and yeah i do believe my friends over you. so i still dont know exactly what all went down but i dont care to hear about it anymore. you tell you me still love me and miss me and whatever. but i just dont believe it because if you did then all that wouldnt have happened. we can be friends yeah, but i cant promise anything for the future.
5... i cant stand you guys anymore. this whole shutting me in thing and constantly dictating everything i do and say has gotta stop. all you guys do is push me away and make me wanna get outta here more and more. and it doesnt help that you dont really help me with anything at all. im a 16 year old girl trying to balance getting my grades up, working more now, paying for my brokedown car, my friends, and relationships all at one time. its not as easy as you seem to believe. and i just want you to know that eventually the freedom you dont give me is just gonna drive me away to the point where im gone.
6...i wish we still were as close as we were. we havent talked in quite a while it seems and i dont like it at all. we used to talk every day and do all kinds of shit. it kinda sucks that we barely even say hi in the hallways anymore. i know its mainly my fault because i dont have a lot of time for anything anymore, and if i do im with other people. but you're still one of my best friends and it hurts me that we arent nearly like we used to be.
damn that felt good. i think im gonna leave it at that tho. because im running out of time. so ill prolly update sometime in the next forever. byee