this, of course,
is going to be one of those depressing self-loathing entries where I'm just trying to vent so bear with me on this...
I've been feeling majorly psycho lately. I'm hoping I can chalk it all up to that time of the month coming up. It's just so awful and my empty apartment is so quiet. So much stress lately and nothing going right. On top of it all I keep getting sick. I never feel well anymore. I always feel crappy. I don't want to be alone. I don't want the silence. I wish my phone would ring, but it's 2:30am so the chances of that are extremely slim. Most-likely no one will even read this. I guess I don't really care. I'm so drained and to be honest... I'm so depressed. I know I'll feel better eventually. I'm just crazy so I guess that comes with the territory. Just certain things trigger it I guess. That's all it takes; a trigger. Something always triggers it. I hope I go to sleep soon and wake up feeling 10 times better. It'd really be great to feel better. I want my clarity back damnit! I want to be back on top of things. I want, I want, I want... egh, this is, I'm sure, by far the most retarded entry I've ever written. YAY ME!
I've been feeling majorly psycho lately. I'm hoping I can chalk it all up to that time of the month coming up. It's just so awful and my empty apartment is so quiet. So much stress lately and nothing going right. On top of it all I keep getting sick. I never feel well anymore. I always feel crappy. I don't want to be alone. I don't want the silence. I wish my phone would ring, but it's 2:30am so the chances of that are extremely slim. Most-likely no one will even read this. I guess I don't really care. I'm so drained and to be honest... I'm so depressed. I know I'll feel better eventually. I'm just crazy so I guess that comes with the territory. Just certain things trigger it I guess. That's all it takes; a trigger. Something always triggers it. I hope I go to sleep soon and wake up feeling 10 times better. It'd really be great to feel better. I want my clarity back damnit! I want to be back on top of things. I want, I want, I want... egh, this is, I'm sure, by far the most retarded entry I've ever written. YAY ME!