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relationships are weird, I'm not very interested in having one right now, but at the same time I want to be loved. I think that this is the basic human need. Love is a hard thing to acquire. Of course i am (presumably) loved by my parents but people need something more than that love that we are used to. We need new exciting love. With me its so strange. The biggest reason I don't want a relationship is the simple fact that I am not comfortable with myself and would prefer not to let too many people inside of my bubble. I'm afraid of letting someone get close. I'm horribly self conscious about what someone will think of me when they get to know the real me because I don't think that I'm a very good person. I'm afraid of social awkwardness so I pretty much avoid it all together. I need social help.
bad.
bad.