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When your life is as empty as mine its hard. I rely on music and bands for alot of my comfort and when I read thing about them it basically calls into question pretty much everything. I know its sad and shit but what the fuck else and I supposed to do? I DONT HAVE FRIENDS. At least ones who I hang out with. Its hard imagine people who seem so nice as jerks, but reality is thats probably what they are. I would laugh at home much people cared about my band so I cant really blame them or anything but its still kinda hard.
Today wasnt great. I felt so restless I really need to get out of the house. I sledded a little and it got some of it out but now I'm having a mini panic attack over this stupid band shit.
Being part of this stupid music "scene" is rough. If you arent 5'4 and 100 pounds life will suck.
in other news I feel like throwing up.
I thought I got over that, but apparently its looking like a friendly option again.
Today wasnt great. I felt so restless I really need to get out of the house. I sledded a little and it got some of it out but now I'm having a mini panic attack over this stupid band shit.
Being part of this stupid music "scene" is rough. If you arent 5'4 and 100 pounds life will suck.
in other news I feel like throwing up.
I thought I got over that, but apparently its looking like a friendly option again.