33. Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
I am really truly afraid of getting old. Partly because of the people at the old people place Saturday. They're all old and none of their family cares for them and they're going crazy. But the bigger reason I don't want to get old is that I never want to get to the point where I sit there remembering life. I want to be living life. Actually living life is a gazillion times better than remembering life.
When I remember about the fun I had with TJ, its like yea that was fun, and I can smile about it, but it also makes me sad because I'd much rather experience things than remember them. The excitement of the whole thing is so much better than just remembering that I was excited.
And the older people get, the less living they do and the more they just have their routine and when they get together with people, they just sit there talking about things they did when they were younger. I really don't want to do that. I never want to get to the point where the most exciting thing to talk about was something from 20 years ago. I mean how depressing is that?
My day...
• We're about to start that sterotypical 'baby' project
• We had a blackout
• I tried out my new purple eyeliner
• I'm working on a new layout still, but you wont see it till it's complete
• I'm going out with Kalen tonight
• [EDIT]I saw Matt tonight when I was with Kalen[/EDIT]
My day + lyrics...
I get to school today and everyone's like "Did you bring your flour?" and I'm like "What flour?" Well, Mrs Chavez put it on the hw site to bring a 5 pound bag of flour. I never check the internet so I didn't know. We get into class and we're gonna start a project on Thursday. The bag of flour is our baby and we hafta bring it with us to all our classes and stuff. And like we hafta keep a journal of when we feed it and change the diaper and stuff like that. But here's the thing... you know like on TV, they pair you up with a guy and you're the parents? Well, we get to be single parents. We don't have a 'husband' to support us and whatever. And this whole thing is as if we had a baby right now cause unless we already have a job, we're unemployed and have no income. And it sucks too cause some teachers will have "daycare" for our "babies" and they can force us to send them to "daycare" for their class AND they're allowed to charge us for it!! wtf is that??
During study hall today I was sitting there doing nothing productive and then the air conditioner shut off and half the lights too. We had a black out but I guess we have generators too so some of the lights still worked.
In english, me and Tania were being our normal selves and I decided to try out my purple eyeliner. Its fun!! I wanna play with colors more in my clothes and make up now. Colors are so fun. I'm glad I'm not color blind!!
I was talking to Tania today trying to figure out what colors to use for my layout, but I don't think she quite undrstood exactly what the picture I'm working with looks like. You'll all just hafta wait and see..
Tonight, Kalen is picking me up at like 7 ish and we're going to In N Out. I don't eat burgers, but I'm gonna see her after a long like 9 days without seeing her!! I'm so excited!!
[EDIT]Kalen's mom picked me up and we went to In N Out. We were going down the street to make a U turn to get in line and Kalen saw Matt and she was like "Hey Matt's there!!" So her mom got in line and we got out and went over to talk to Matt. OMG, he wants Kalen sooooo bad!!! It was a little weird for me cause like two weeks ago, I kissed him. But like yea. Kalen introduced him to her mom and when we got in the car, she said she didn't like one thing about him and then Kalen's all defending him. He is so not the type you bring home to mom. He's the guy you date to piss mom off.
I come home in the morning light
My mother says when you gonna live your life right
Oh mother dear we're not the fortunate ones
And girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun
The phone rings in the middle of the night
My father yells what you gonna do with your life
Oh daddy dear you know you're still number one
But girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have
That's all they really want
Some fun
When the working day is done
Oh girls.. they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun
Some boys take a beautiful girl
And hide her away from the rest of the world
I want to be the one to walk in the sun
Oh girls they wanna have fun
Oh girls just wanna have
That's all they really want
Some fun
When the working day is done
Oh girls.. they wanna have fun
Oh girls just wanna have fun,
They wanna have fun,
They wanna have fun...
Cyndi Lauper
Compared to a day of sunshine
Compared to the favorite song of mine
When I'm hanging with my girls in the summer time
Would I choose you or the friends of mine
I had seen you
Looking at me on our way to school and
I watched you too
You were looking kinda cute with your baggles and your eyes
I just couldn't help myself
I walked up to you
You said "Hey girl, what's up?"
We went dating
You took me to the movies and you held my hand
On our way home
You gave me a kiss and a beeper then you smiled
You said now I can be sure that I'll reach my girl
Cause you rock my world
Dont get me wrong we have a good thing
Its not like I'm not thinking of you but you not my everything
Compared to a day of sunshine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to the favorite song of mine
You don't stand a chance!
When I'm hanging with my girls in the summer time
You don't stand a chance!
Would I choose you or the friends of mine
You don't stand a chance!
Your friend told me
That I'm the only thing you've been thinking of
He said you've been
Goin' on about how we're so deep in love
And how I sit around just waiting for you to call
Boy, you're off the wall
Don't get me wrong our thing is good fun
But its not like im at home everyday just waiting by the phone
Compared to a day of sunshine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to the favorite song of mine
You don't stand a chance!
When I'm hanging with my girls in the summer time
You don't stand a chance!
Would I choose you or the friends of mine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to a day of sunshine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to the favorite song of mine
You don't stand a chance!
When I'm hanging with my girls in the summer time
You don't stand a chance!
Would I choose you or the friends of mine
You don't stand a chance!
Don't get me wrong we have a good thing
Its not like I'm not thinkin of you but you not my everything
Compared to a day of sunshine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to the favorite song of mine
You don't stand a chance!
When I'm hanging with my girls in the summer time
You don't stand a chance!
Would I choose you or the friends of mine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to a day of sunshine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to the favorite song of mine
You don't stand a chance!
When I'm hanging with my girls in the summer time
You don't stand a chance!
Would I choose you or the friends of mine
You don't stand a chance!
Amanda
You held my hand and walked me home alone
While you gave me that kiss it was something like this it made me go oh oh
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love gosh you're so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl the one who gives it all away
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time
Did you think that it was something I was gonna do and cry
Don't try to tell me what to do, don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way
Don't think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants I'll have to kick your ass and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop, I thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset
Get out of my head, get off of my bed, yeah thats what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl, the one who, throws it all away
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry
Don't try to tell me what to do, don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way
This guilt trip that you put me on won't, mess me up I've done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time
Did you think that it was something I was gonna do and cry
Don't try to tell me what to do, don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way
Better off that way
I'm better off alone anyway
Avril Lavigne
Here in this diary
I write you visions of my summer
It was the best I ever had
There were choruses and sing-alongs
And that unspoken feeling
Of knowing that right now is all that matters
All the nights we stayed up talking
And listening to 80's songs
And quoting lines from all those movies that we love
It still brings a smile to my face
I guess when it comes down to it..
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart
And eventually you'll finally get it right
Breaking into hotel swimming pools
And wreaking havoc on our world
Hanging out at truck stops just to pass the time
The black top's singing me to sleep
Lighting fireworks in parking lots
Illuminate the blackest nights
Cherry cokes under this moonlight summer sky
2015 Riverside, it's time to say, "goodbye"
Get on the bus, it's time to go.
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart
And eventually you'll finally get it right
Get it right
Get it right
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart
And eventually you'll finally get it right
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart
And eventually you'll finally get it right
The Ataris
When I remember about the fun I had with TJ, its like yea that was fun, and I can smile about it, but it also makes me sad because I'd much rather experience things than remember them. The excitement of the whole thing is so much better than just remembering that I was excited.
And the older people get, the less living they do and the more they just have their routine and when they get together with people, they just sit there talking about things they did when they were younger. I really don't want to do that. I never want to get to the point where the most exciting thing to talk about was something from 20 years ago. I mean how depressing is that?
My day...
• We're about to start that sterotypical 'baby' project
• We had a blackout
• I tried out my new purple eyeliner
• I'm working on a new layout still, but you wont see it till it's complete
• I'm going out with Kalen tonight
• [EDIT]I saw Matt tonight when I was with Kalen[/EDIT]
My day + lyrics...
I get to school today and everyone's like "Did you bring your flour?" and I'm like "What flour?" Well, Mrs Chavez put it on the hw site to bring a 5 pound bag of flour. I never check the internet so I didn't know. We get into class and we're gonna start a project on Thursday. The bag of flour is our baby and we hafta bring it with us to all our classes and stuff. And like we hafta keep a journal of when we feed it and change the diaper and stuff like that. But here's the thing... you know like on TV, they pair you up with a guy and you're the parents? Well, we get to be single parents. We don't have a 'husband' to support us and whatever. And this whole thing is as if we had a baby right now cause unless we already have a job, we're unemployed and have no income. And it sucks too cause some teachers will have "daycare" for our "babies" and they can force us to send them to "daycare" for their class AND they're allowed to charge us for it!! wtf is that??
During study hall today I was sitting there doing nothing productive and then the air conditioner shut off and half the lights too. We had a black out but I guess we have generators too so some of the lights still worked.
In english, me and Tania were being our normal selves and I decided to try out my purple eyeliner. Its fun!! I wanna play with colors more in my clothes and make up now. Colors are so fun. I'm glad I'm not color blind!!
I was talking to Tania today trying to figure out what colors to use for my layout, but I don't think she quite undrstood exactly what the picture I'm working with looks like. You'll all just hafta wait and see..
Tonight, Kalen is picking me up at like 7 ish and we're going to In N Out. I don't eat burgers, but I'm gonna see her after a long like 9 days without seeing her!! I'm so excited!!
[EDIT]Kalen's mom picked me up and we went to In N Out. We were going down the street to make a U turn to get in line and Kalen saw Matt and she was like "Hey Matt's there!!" So her mom got in line and we got out and went over to talk to Matt. OMG, he wants Kalen sooooo bad!!! It was a little weird for me cause like two weeks ago, I kissed him. But like yea. Kalen introduced him to her mom and when we got in the car, she said she didn't like one thing about him and then Kalen's all defending him. He is so not the type you bring home to mom. He's the guy you date to piss mom off.
I come home in the morning light
My mother says when you gonna live your life right
Oh mother dear we're not the fortunate ones
And girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun
The phone rings in the middle of the night
My father yells what you gonna do with your life
Oh daddy dear you know you're still number one
But girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have
That's all they really want
Some fun
When the working day is done
Oh girls.. they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun
Some boys take a beautiful girl
And hide her away from the rest of the world
I want to be the one to walk in the sun
Oh girls they wanna have fun
Oh girls just wanna have
That's all they really want
Some fun
When the working day is done
Oh girls.. they wanna have fun
Oh girls just wanna have fun,
They wanna have fun,
They wanna have fun...
Cyndi Lauper
Compared to a day of sunshine
Compared to the favorite song of mine
When I'm hanging with my girls in the summer time
Would I choose you or the friends of mine
I had seen you
Looking at me on our way to school and
I watched you too
You were looking kinda cute with your baggles and your eyes
I just couldn't help myself
I walked up to you
You said "Hey girl, what's up?"
We went dating
You took me to the movies and you held my hand
On our way home
You gave me a kiss and a beeper then you smiled
You said now I can be sure that I'll reach my girl
Cause you rock my world
Dont get me wrong we have a good thing
Its not like I'm not thinking of you but you not my everything
Compared to a day of sunshine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to the favorite song of mine
You don't stand a chance!
When I'm hanging with my girls in the summer time
You don't stand a chance!
Would I choose you or the friends of mine
You don't stand a chance!
Your friend told me
That I'm the only thing you've been thinking of
He said you've been
Goin' on about how we're so deep in love
And how I sit around just waiting for you to call
Boy, you're off the wall
Don't get me wrong our thing is good fun
But its not like im at home everyday just waiting by the phone
Compared to a day of sunshine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to the favorite song of mine
You don't stand a chance!
When I'm hanging with my girls in the summer time
You don't stand a chance!
Would I choose you or the friends of mine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to a day of sunshine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to the favorite song of mine
You don't stand a chance!
When I'm hanging with my girls in the summer time
You don't stand a chance!
Would I choose you or the friends of mine
You don't stand a chance!
Don't get me wrong we have a good thing
Its not like I'm not thinkin of you but you not my everything
Compared to a day of sunshine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to the favorite song of mine
You don't stand a chance!
When I'm hanging with my girls in the summer time
You don't stand a chance!
Would I choose you or the friends of mine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to a day of sunshine
You don't stand a chance!
Compared to the favorite song of mine
You don't stand a chance!
When I'm hanging with my girls in the summer time
You don't stand a chance!
Would I choose you or the friends of mine
You don't stand a chance!
Amanda
You held my hand and walked me home alone
While you gave me that kiss it was something like this it made me go oh oh
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love gosh you're so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl the one who gives it all away
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time
Did you think that it was something I was gonna do and cry
Don't try to tell me what to do, don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way
Don't think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants I'll have to kick your ass and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop, I thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset
Get out of my head, get off of my bed, yeah thats what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl, the one who, throws it all away
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry
Don't try to tell me what to do, don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way
This guilt trip that you put me on won't, mess me up I've done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time
Did you think that it was something I was gonna do and cry
Don't try to tell me what to do, don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way
Better off that way
I'm better off alone anyway
Avril Lavigne
Here in this diary
I write you visions of my summer
It was the best I ever had
There were choruses and sing-alongs
And that unspoken feeling
Of knowing that right now is all that matters
All the nights we stayed up talking
And listening to 80's songs
And quoting lines from all those movies that we love
It still brings a smile to my face
I guess when it comes down to it..
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart
And eventually you'll finally get it right
Breaking into hotel swimming pools
And wreaking havoc on our world
Hanging out at truck stops just to pass the time
The black top's singing me to sleep
Lighting fireworks in parking lots
Illuminate the blackest nights
Cherry cokes under this moonlight summer sky
2015 Riverside, it's time to say, "goodbye"
Get on the bus, it's time to go.
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart
And eventually you'll finally get it right
Get it right
Get it right
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart
And eventually you'll finally get it right
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
These are the best days of our lives
The only thing that matters
Is just following your heart
And eventually you'll finally get it right
The Ataris