you know you do, you kill me well...
"so cut my wrist's and black my eye's, so I can fall asleep tonight..."
(backround info coz I feel I have to explain) ok so Jamie (the one Jacobs in love with) is on his top 8 on myspace, wow no duh... anyways she puts up pretty awesome pic's and the only way to see em is to click on her name... her profile is set to private, which also doesnt surprise me, but I clicked on it this last time and it wasnt (o-O) oh la la... [I almost felt like screaming with odd'ness at being able to better understand this woman who is helping break my heart [yet at the cost of making him so vey very very happy] but at the same time seems to be someone I could relate to and become friends with] so I'm shaking now ... I check out her profile a couple of times (within a few day's or so) and then spot an author whom I've recently become attached to, so what do I do? I msg her :0 what a fucking idiot I am, but I cant help it... and I'm me of all things... arg. so we end up talking about books and how I knew her profile wasnt on private and how (oh no da) we both know Jacob (or that I know her through him and she's heard about me [only good things of course]) holy shit. all in all it was a nice convo... nerve racking but nice... oh and we talked about FOB and PANIC! lol :D ... so yea. thats been the thing on my mind most of today... shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit. heh. I'm curious damn me ... I am ... I want to get to know her... dammit. But I highly doubt I'm going to write her again unless its about what we've already talked about... :/ jhfdksdj.... annnnd I went to this band thing at the high school for larissa and saw Jacob's ex. heh. I was torn between waiting to see if she realized she knew me or punching her face in... (it was a tough one but I decided waiting was the better thing to do...) ... damn it all to hell... why oh why? just answer me that... :& now I'm almost tempted to have Jacob read this just coz its centered around him and not so much about how I feel for him.. which is good but yea...
I think I'm going to sleep.. I wish my body would make up its mind as to whether it wants to keep the temp or let it go away... ... oy.. oooh and I have an knee appt next thurs? or tues? :D yes! oh heck yesh!... it'll be nice to have an idea of whats up with them... evil body parts that cause pain (my heart included [tho thats my own doing] heh)
night all and sleep tight... luvs and kisses
(backround info coz I feel I have to explain) ok so Jamie (the one Jacobs in love with) is on his top 8 on myspace, wow no duh... anyways she puts up pretty awesome pic's and the only way to see em is to click on her name... her profile is set to private, which also doesnt surprise me, but I clicked on it this last time and it wasnt (o-O) oh la la... [I almost felt like screaming with odd'ness at being able to better understand this woman who is helping break my heart [yet at the cost of making him so vey very very happy] but at the same time seems to be someone I could relate to and become friends with] so I'm shaking now ... I check out her profile a couple of times (within a few day's or so) and then spot an author whom I've recently become attached to, so what do I do? I msg her :0 what a fucking idiot I am, but I cant help it... and I'm me of all things... arg. so we end up talking about books and how I knew her profile wasnt on private and how (oh no da) we both know Jacob (or that I know her through him and she's heard about me [only good things of course]) holy shit. all in all it was a nice convo... nerve racking but nice... oh and we talked about FOB and PANIC! lol :D ... so yea. thats been the thing on my mind most of today... shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit. heh. I'm curious damn me ... I am ... I want to get to know her... dammit. But I highly doubt I'm going to write her again unless its about what we've already talked about... :/ jhfdksdj.... annnnd I went to this band thing at the high school for larissa and saw Jacob's ex. heh. I was torn between waiting to see if she realized she knew me or punching her face in... (it was a tough one but I decided waiting was the better thing to do...) ... damn it all to hell... why oh why? just answer me that... :& now I'm almost tempted to have Jacob read this just coz its centered around him and not so much about how I feel for him.. which is good but yea...
I think I'm going to sleep.. I wish my body would make up its mind as to whether it wants to keep the temp or let it go away... ... oy.. oooh and I have an knee appt next thurs? or tues? :D yes! oh heck yesh!... it'll be nice to have an idea of whats up with them... evil body parts that cause pain (my heart included [tho thats my own doing] heh)
night all and sleep tight... luvs and kisses