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blah, i really have to become re-accustomed to my own hormones. im so moody.
my mom was upset because my brother walked for 3 hours in the dark to get beer. upset = worried, and my dad doesnt know how to be comforting, so instead he made fun of her in a mean way (btw, they're getting a divorce, so it's pretty tense around here, and dads even more of a prick), which only made her cry more, which made me cry, because i was already mad.
mad at yahoo, mad at translink, mad at north vancouver, mad at stupid book projects, mad at stupid money-spending season, mad at lack of time during school, mad at myself, mad at morgan, mad at everyone.
i want time alone :( im never alone. i was only for 2 days this summer. im so fucking sick of people near me, sitting next to people, smiling at people, getting shit from people, hearing people, smelling people, seeing people, im so sick of everyone! and its not like i can sit alone in my room. oh no, because that's just invitation for my parents to fight. not like i would anyway. i cant even listen to music. or search for fucking pictures, or browse the goddamn internet for bus routes that dont exist and find excuses for every-fucking-thing i do! GOD! just leave me alone! please!
my mom was upset because my brother walked for 3 hours in the dark to get beer. upset = worried, and my dad doesnt know how to be comforting, so instead he made fun of her in a mean way (btw, they're getting a divorce, so it's pretty tense around here, and dads even more of a prick), which only made her cry more, which made me cry, because i was already mad.
mad at yahoo, mad at translink, mad at north vancouver, mad at stupid book projects, mad at stupid money-spending season, mad at lack of time during school, mad at myself, mad at morgan, mad at everyone.
i want time alone :( im never alone. i was only for 2 days this summer. im so fucking sick of people near me, sitting next to people, smiling at people, getting shit from people, hearing people, smelling people, seeing people, im so sick of everyone! and its not like i can sit alone in my room. oh no, because that's just invitation for my parents to fight. not like i would anyway. i cant even listen to music. or search for fucking pictures, or browse the goddamn internet for bus routes that dont exist and find excuses for every-fucking-thing i do! GOD! just leave me alone! please!