trying to find happiness or at least something close...
sigh....seems like I spend alot of my life trying please others - and keep some stability in my life. I sometimes wonder where did taking care of myself go. Cause right now more than ever I need to worry about me. Work is crazy and I should be somewhere else in my career than I am but such is that. Trying to make up for it now won't fix the pass but might help the future. I've spent alot of time being numb.
I recently bought my first horse, who I love and treasure dearly but sometimes dobt my decision to do so. Santos is like my escape from reality, which while good in many ways I worry about holding me back in others. God I wish I knew what the hell I was doing and if i have been making the right choices, but only time will tell. Guess it's wait and see.
I recently bought my first horse, who I love and treasure dearly but sometimes dobt my decision to do so. Santos is like my escape from reality, which while good in many ways I worry about holding me back in others. God I wish I knew what the hell I was doing and if i have been making the right choices, but only time will tell. Guess it's wait and see.