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Have you wokeup and just thought to yourself: Why did I wakeup? I generally go around my usual day, quiet as always and just ponder the thoughts of anyone actually noticing me. If I wasn't there, what would the difference have been?
I almost didn't make it into this world - in fact I wasn't supposed to. But for some reason I did. My entire life I've thrived to be a better person for everyone. To mean somthing, to make people smile, to make a difference. I work so hard - probably to hard. I eventually end up burnt out and lonely. Everyone from work makes big plans to do stuff but I'm never invited, I always hear about it the next morning.
For some reason, I just never seem to fit in. I'm most comfertable when I'm all alone. I travel a lot. I go places to dissapear. I want to be someone else - somwhere else. I don't like buildings and roads and people. I just like miles of nothing but nature. Its what keeps me alive.
I've only met one person that I truely thought cared about me. And then one day, she was taken away. Gone from my life as if she was a cloud in the sky. I've had people try to fill that hole. But the list is so very short, I can't even remember the last time anyone was even remotely interested in me.
Somtimes, I look in the mirror and think "wow I'm an old man." They say that at 22 you're in the prime of your life. Just over your peak physical condition. I keep hoping, thinking, wishing, saying "that when I grow up." But its hard to imagine that I'm supposed to already be there. Everyday I see people younger then me with so much more. I feel as though I've missed it all. I'm a ghost still working to pay his taxes.
this life ain't worth living. I would die tonight for Love. but I have no reason to believe it will ever exist.
I almost didn't make it into this world - in fact I wasn't supposed to. But for some reason I did. My entire life I've thrived to be a better person for everyone. To mean somthing, to make people smile, to make a difference. I work so hard - probably to hard. I eventually end up burnt out and lonely. Everyone from work makes big plans to do stuff but I'm never invited, I always hear about it the next morning.
For some reason, I just never seem to fit in. I'm most comfertable when I'm all alone. I travel a lot. I go places to dissapear. I want to be someone else - somwhere else. I don't like buildings and roads and people. I just like miles of nothing but nature. Its what keeps me alive.
I've only met one person that I truely thought cared about me. And then one day, she was taken away. Gone from my life as if she was a cloud in the sky. I've had people try to fill that hole. But the list is so very short, I can't even remember the last time anyone was even remotely interested in me.
Somtimes, I look in the mirror and think "wow I'm an old man." They say that at 22 you're in the prime of your life. Just over your peak physical condition. I keep hoping, thinking, wishing, saying "that when I grow up." But its hard to imagine that I'm supposed to already be there. Everyday I see people younger then me with so much more. I feel as though I've missed it all. I'm a ghost still working to pay his taxes.
this life ain't worth living. I would die tonight for Love. but I have no reason to believe it will ever exist.