Better Lonely than Crazy
All right, so I'm going through my poetry stuff, and I keep stumbling upon rather old poems that I rather like, so I think I'll post this one as well, even though it's the longest one that I've ever written, and it's a little bit odd. It's all done in free verse....which was a rarity back when i wrote this...But I kind of like it. It has nice rhythm when read aloud. Hope y'all like it.
Better Lonely than Crazy?
It’s a cold June morning,
but I’m starting not to care anymore.
It’s raining- so what…
Nothin’ I can do about it anyways.
I stare at my posters
And they can’t make me smile anymore.
But I don’t hate them for it-
How could I?
I’ll just stay in bed today
It’s less complicated than getting up
Because waiting for me
Is my cold tile floor.
Those freezing tiles
And complicated relationships-
I wish I could just cut you off of me
And go to rehab to get better.
Whatever- at least I’m alone for now
I should enjoy it while it lasts
But being content
Just isn’t as much fun.
I would wish upon a star-
Does the sun count as a star?-
But it’s too foggy
To even see out my window.
Nature’s own smoke and mirrors-
I wonder what she’s hiding.
As if a freezing June morning wasn’t
Reason enough to be ashamed.
I hear a click on the glass.
Quit throwing rocks at my window.
I’m serious-
I’ve had enough of your romance.
Oh, go soak you head-
Maybe the water will do it good.
Don’t you know life doesn’t work this way?
Stop being so stinkin’ dependant.
No, I didn’t mean it
I do still love you
Even though you drive me crazy
On these frigid June mornings
When you have nothing better to do
Than annoy me with your issues,
Your fake inner demons,
Your sappy teenage drama.
Ah, well…I couldn’t live without you
Not even if I tried.
That’s why I hate you.
Because you own me.
But, then again,
Pillow talk without you
Is always so cliché
So I guess I’ll get back to you on that.
But this morning I’m not letting you in
My window- throw rocks all you want.
Shimmy up the drainpipe-
See if I care.
But on this foggy June morning
I’m staying in bed.
And you can’t join me-
Not this time.
As if I could stop you-
Yeah, right. In my dreams.
But take pity on me
And leave me to myself.
Insanity is so much more fun anyways.
Yeah- that one I did mean.
I don’t care if you need me-
I already told you to go away.
No I don’t want to see you-
Don’t be stupid.
Why do you think
I got rid of all my mirrors?
Come back tomorrow
When I’m feeling more sensitive.
Stick pins in me then-
I’ll be more responsive.
For the record I really don’t care
If you get pneumonia
It’s your own fault
For standing in the rain
Waiting for me to open my window,
Beckon you to me,
And kiss your waiting lips
Like the travesties they are.
Just shut up already!
Quit talking to me-
can’t you see that
I’m trying to sleep?
Go ahead- bother me in my dreams
At least there I can
Kill you and
Not be condemned for it.
No, I probably couldn’t
Pull the trigger…you’re right.
I love you and need you
As much as I hate to admit it.
So I’ll just be quiet now…
Stop talking to myself
Because it’s better to be lonely
Than crazy…right?
Better Lonely than Crazy?
It’s a cold June morning,
but I’m starting not to care anymore.
It’s raining- so what…
Nothin’ I can do about it anyways.
I stare at my posters
And they can’t make me smile anymore.
But I don’t hate them for it-
How could I?
I’ll just stay in bed today
It’s less complicated than getting up
Because waiting for me
Is my cold tile floor.
Those freezing tiles
And complicated relationships-
I wish I could just cut you off of me
And go to rehab to get better.
Whatever- at least I’m alone for now
I should enjoy it while it lasts
But being content
Just isn’t as much fun.
I would wish upon a star-
Does the sun count as a star?-
But it’s too foggy
To even see out my window.
Nature’s own smoke and mirrors-
I wonder what she’s hiding.
As if a freezing June morning wasn’t
Reason enough to be ashamed.
I hear a click on the glass.
Quit throwing rocks at my window.
I’m serious-
I’ve had enough of your romance.
Oh, go soak you head-
Maybe the water will do it good.
Don’t you know life doesn’t work this way?
Stop being so stinkin’ dependant.
No, I didn’t mean it
I do still love you
Even though you drive me crazy
On these frigid June mornings
When you have nothing better to do
Than annoy me with your issues,
Your fake inner demons,
Your sappy teenage drama.
Ah, well…I couldn’t live without you
Not even if I tried.
That’s why I hate you.
Because you own me.
But, then again,
Pillow talk without you
Is always so cliché
So I guess I’ll get back to you on that.
But this morning I’m not letting you in
My window- throw rocks all you want.
Shimmy up the drainpipe-
See if I care.
But on this foggy June morning
I’m staying in bed.
And you can’t join me-
Not this time.
As if I could stop you-
Yeah, right. In my dreams.
But take pity on me
And leave me to myself.
Insanity is so much more fun anyways.
Yeah- that one I did mean.
I don’t care if you need me-
I already told you to go away.
No I don’t want to see you-
Don’t be stupid.
Why do you think
I got rid of all my mirrors?
Come back tomorrow
When I’m feeling more sensitive.
Stick pins in me then-
I’ll be more responsive.
For the record I really don’t care
If you get pneumonia
It’s your own fault
For standing in the rain
Waiting for me to open my window,
Beckon you to me,
And kiss your waiting lips
Like the travesties they are.
Just shut up already!
Quit talking to me-
can’t you see that
I’m trying to sleep?
Go ahead- bother me in my dreams
At least there I can
Kill you and
Not be condemned for it.
No, I probably couldn’t
Pull the trigger…you’re right.
I love you and need you
As much as I hate to admit it.
So I’ll just be quiet now…
Stop talking to myself
Because it’s better to be lonely
Than crazy…right?