here i go...scream my lungs out...and try to get to you.........
Well.....it finally happened......i broke down...i shed tears for the words you've said. I yelled, i cussed...and i had a craving for my old habit.
i guess a lot of people wanted this....and i hope they are all happy now...i really do.
*To you: i never wanted anything bad to happen to you. I really cared a lot more than you realize.....but you didnt see that cuz you were to busy bad mouthing me. And thats okay with me, i hope it makes you feel better. But i mean this---i dont have a problem with you....never have.....i never wanted any of this to happen the way it did. I'm sorry you feel bad....i've been there, and thats why i understand if you hate me, and thats why i've never tried to get back at you for the things you've said about me, and thats why i never will. I know what it feel like to have your heart broken.....but...im not the one that broke it. I heard you were sorry...if its true.....then i forgive you.
*And to everyone else: I never did anything. My sister in law might be mad...but the reason she is mad isnt because of me....i didnt do what made her mad. Sorry people's actions are catching up with them...thats not my fault...i didnt ask you to do what you did. And i didnt ask stephanie to be mad. Yeah, so my brother said something, but it had nothing to do with this situation, so why bring him in this? Why does my brother and sister in law mean anything to this situation. Why are you other people trying to instigate what isnt your problem.....i've been trying my best to say out of the way.....cuz its not my situation, i didnt do anything.
I hope this was what everyone was pushing for.......i really do. I hope this makes you all smile, i hope it makes you feel like a winner, and i hope you feel like you accomplished something. If this is what you wanted, then here's a pat on the back to you all for a job well done.
Yeah.....i got a knife pushed right through my chest with all these hateful words, and man did i ever bleed. If the batteries in my camera werent dead, i'd take pictures for you all...just to give proof of your accomplishment. But you know what......even though i feel as bad as i do, i dont have a bad life. And.....if you all knew me like you think, you'd know that...and you prolly wouldnt have said such terrible things about me. But...you dont know me like you think you do, so stop acting like it.
So here i am...with a red face, blood shot eyes, and eye make up smeared on my face...a token of my weakness. Thank you for reminding me of how weak i really am....cuz i had just about forgotten. And occasionally i should be reminded...cuz its not good to be cocky.
By the way...i never referred to myself as "Tha Becky".....thats what stephanie calls me.
Here it is....the white flag.....i hope this is over now......like someone said not too long ago.."You got what you wanted..now leave me alone"
Randy---thank you for my smile.
Donny--thank you for my laugh, and my love of yoohoo.
i guess a lot of people wanted this....and i hope they are all happy now...i really do.
*To you: i never wanted anything bad to happen to you. I really cared a lot more than you realize.....but you didnt see that cuz you were to busy bad mouthing me. And thats okay with me, i hope it makes you feel better. But i mean this---i dont have a problem with you....never have.....i never wanted any of this to happen the way it did. I'm sorry you feel bad....i've been there, and thats why i understand if you hate me, and thats why i've never tried to get back at you for the things you've said about me, and thats why i never will. I know what it feel like to have your heart broken.....but...im not the one that broke it. I heard you were sorry...if its true.....then i forgive you.
*And to everyone else: I never did anything. My sister in law might be mad...but the reason she is mad isnt because of me....i didnt do what made her mad. Sorry people's actions are catching up with them...thats not my fault...i didnt ask you to do what you did. And i didnt ask stephanie to be mad. Yeah, so my brother said something, but it had nothing to do with this situation, so why bring him in this? Why does my brother and sister in law mean anything to this situation. Why are you other people trying to instigate what isnt your problem.....i've been trying my best to say out of the way.....cuz its not my situation, i didnt do anything.
I hope this was what everyone was pushing for.......i really do. I hope this makes you all smile, i hope it makes you feel like a winner, and i hope you feel like you accomplished something. If this is what you wanted, then here's a pat on the back to you all for a job well done.
Yeah.....i got a knife pushed right through my chest with all these hateful words, and man did i ever bleed. If the batteries in my camera werent dead, i'd take pictures for you all...just to give proof of your accomplishment. But you know what......even though i feel as bad as i do, i dont have a bad life. And.....if you all knew me like you think, you'd know that...and you prolly wouldnt have said such terrible things about me. But...you dont know me like you think you do, so stop acting like it.
So here i am...with a red face, blood shot eyes, and eye make up smeared on my face...a token of my weakness. Thank you for reminding me of how weak i really am....cuz i had just about forgotten. And occasionally i should be reminded...cuz its not good to be cocky.
By the way...i never referred to myself as "Tha Becky".....thats what stephanie calls me.
Here it is....the white flag.....i hope this is over now......like someone said not too long ago.."You got what you wanted..now leave me alone"
Randy---thank you for my smile.
Donny--thank you for my laugh, and my love of yoohoo.