I need to Vent.... I just need to get it out...
I'm a little frustrated right now... and this is why:
WORK: Overall I really do love my job, however as of recently our company has made some decisions and changes that not only effect the entire company... my department gets hit the hardest. UNDERSTAND- I AM NOT LOSING MY JOB... however I am taking more on... Not that this is necessarily bad being it is job security... however, I feel like I"ve become a dumping pile lately in my office being that people keep dumping more URGENT tasks than I can handle.... We're supposed to have an office policy about communicating and when to pass on things to other people... but somehow when it comes to me, the rules get bypassed and I have to do more and more and more... with no one to pass it on to when I CAN'T DO IT ALL... I've asked people to help me... and they say, "No, you've got to do it, we can't help you... we're busy too..." HELLO....so am I.....
What ticks me off more than anything is that I've seen people at work in my office sitting around taking personal calls (code for talking on the phone for long amounts of time) AND surfing Facebook right in front of me.... HELLO..... no wonder you're so "busy" Facebook and Personal Calls must be nice... if you'd get off your duffs and stop with that, you could be doing the projects you're supposed to be doing.... and you could step in and help me instead of passing your dirty leftovers to me while you write blogs, chat and play on the internet.... FREAKS.
I'd love to tell my boss.... I'd love to just tell her what goes on... and how incompetent some of the people are... and what goes on.. Honestly, I don't play on Facebook... I don't take personal calls and if I do... they're about 5 minutes or less.... and try to keep things busy. I am lucky to get my office e-mails and have time to check those....
Where is the balance??? Why am I a dumping pile??? I know it's nice to be needed but at times I feel a little "too needed" and I can't be productive with my job description and responsibilities because I keep getting interrupted with "more important" things that "just can't wait" It's a wonder my office gets anything done in the first place.... we need boundaries.... in some way shape or form because it feels like it's too stressful and slightly unhealthy....
Maybe I've just had a rough day.... maybe there is a brighter perspective, but I felt I needed to write my raw feelings out just to get them off my chest.
I do like my job, overall... it's a fun office for the most part, but the last few days have been mayhem and the work that keeps coming my way is sucking the life out of me and pulling me under....and I don't want it to keep being this way. I usually look forward to going to work each day... but if it keeps up like this, I'm not so sure.
Seminary is another story... It's my least likeable semester as of yet.... my classes are so-so and I'm unsure of what next semester will bring... none of the classes looked so good to me.... Time... I never seem to have enough.....
I just want to go to a beach... sit in the sun and be alone with my thoughts for a while... I really am sick of people asking too much of me.... and interrupting me.....