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Feeling like garbage. Getting closer to hurting myself. Already eating crap which I know is bad for me, will throw me out of ketosis and bring my blood sugar through the roof and make me gain weight. Also driving without a seatbelt because I don't care if I die. Hopefully this is as far as it goes. I just need to get more in control of myself. I wish I had someone to talk to but there is no one I trust enough or that already knows enough of the situation that I wouldn't have to go over it again. Maybe if I could cry and get it all out. I tried to talk to Tom but I just got too emotional and he couldn't handle it. I want to scream and rant and rage but he can't handle it. I may just have to go it in the middle of nowhere and rage.