I feel sick
So got into a fight with Thomas again today. Not sure what button i pushed to set him off but it was enough for him to try to attack me. I was on the floor in the living room and he came from his room to attach, luckily James intercepted. Unfortunately James took a beating that was meant for me. Tom sperated them in the kitchen but not before they knocked over two chairs but luckily nothing got broken except maybe James pride. Thomas have him a pretty good goose egg. Because of this drama i went and stress/depressed/emotionally ate a lot of raw cookie dough. So much that i want to throw up. I need to get back to working out. I need the emotional support and the outlet for my stress.
I'm too tired for Thomas bullshit. He seems to think he can just go on treating us like crap and we will do nothing. I'm going to write him a letter with my feelings. I'm also going to write it an agreement for him to stay here and a repayment agreement.... Which is what started all the drama. I told him i wanted to sit down with him like adults and discuss a repayment arrangement.
I must stay strong. I must not buckle. I can do this. I should not have to talk myself into hashing this out.