I can't sleep
I'm having trouble sleeping. I took a nap today and it kinda turned into a "sleep." I was tired earlier, but then I got a phone call and that woke me back up.
If you don't want to read my posts, then don't. I'm not forcing you to. However, I don't feel like having to mark everything private. I need a better reason to make it private than "I don't want to see em." However, I will keep this part of my journal more PC. I'm sorry, I'm trying to not over-think or over-react. I am PMSing right now and I know I'm turning into a crazy lady, so I'm trying to not confuse what I think and what I feel.
Alright, on to other things.
The physics REU stuff is underway. I am working in atomic physics to characterize polarized cells. These cells are used down at JLAB to better understand nuclear physics. For the past week I have been trying to program the computer to analyze and fit data so that we can better understand it. Once the program gets up and running we're going to try to get as much noise as possible out of the data. That's the ultimate goal.
Being at William & Mary is weird. I'm kinda glad I decided not to go here. It's pretty lonely and I don't like the people. No one makes eye contact or says hi or anything. At Bridgewater, almost everyone says hi when you walk past them. Not so much here. Don't get me wrong, no one is mean or anything, but it just isn't my type of place. I do like the fact that the people are less conservative though. It makes things more comfortable.
I miss my friends. While I keep in touch with some every now and then, others seem to have faded away. I miss Thomas. I know things got screwed up, but whatever. Crap happens. That was 2 years ago, and I just wish I had some back in my life. I miss his crazy antics. I miss Emily. The real Emily, not this fake one who is being sketchy. I would rather hear what is going on from her than hearing it from Brian. Either way I am going to know what is happening, so it'd be better to come from her. If she wants info out of me, then she also has to share. I miss Jake. I don't even know the last time I saw him. I think it was more than 2 years ago. I just want to talk to him, and not through some stupid email.
Wow, it's almost 4am. I have to be in the lab in 6 hours. I need to take a shower in the morning too, so I need to wake up in 5 hours. However, I know if I lay down right now I won't be able to sleep. I was hoping writing everything down would help, but there's still a lot running through my mind.
If you don't want to read my posts, then don't. I'm not forcing you to. However, I don't feel like having to mark everything private. I need a better reason to make it private than "I don't want to see em." However, I will keep this part of my journal more PC. I'm sorry, I'm trying to not over-think or over-react. I am PMSing right now and I know I'm turning into a crazy lady, so I'm trying to not confuse what I think and what I feel.
Alright, on to other things.
The physics REU stuff is underway. I am working in atomic physics to characterize polarized cells. These cells are used down at JLAB to better understand nuclear physics. For the past week I have been trying to program the computer to analyze and fit data so that we can better understand it. Once the program gets up and running we're going to try to get as much noise as possible out of the data. That's the ultimate goal.
Being at William & Mary is weird. I'm kinda glad I decided not to go here. It's pretty lonely and I don't like the people. No one makes eye contact or says hi or anything. At Bridgewater, almost everyone says hi when you walk past them. Not so much here. Don't get me wrong, no one is mean or anything, but it just isn't my type of place. I do like the fact that the people are less conservative though. It makes things more comfortable.
I miss my friends. While I keep in touch with some every now and then, others seem to have faded away. I miss Thomas. I know things got screwed up, but whatever. Crap happens. That was 2 years ago, and I just wish I had some back in my life. I miss his crazy antics. I miss Emily. The real Emily, not this fake one who is being sketchy. I would rather hear what is going on from her than hearing it from Brian. Either way I am going to know what is happening, so it'd be better to come from her. If she wants info out of me, then she also has to share. I miss Jake. I don't even know the last time I saw him. I think it was more than 2 years ago. I just want to talk to him, and not through some stupid email.
Wow, it's almost 4am. I have to be in the lab in 6 hours. I need to take a shower in the morning too, so I need to wake up in 5 hours. However, I know if I lay down right now I won't be able to sleep. I was hoping writing everything down would help, but there's still a lot running through my mind.