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I don't understand where I am or what I am doing.
It still hurts so fucking much.
I don't understand why I do this. Why I go after people who don't want me.
I'm so scared about my life and the future.
I don't know what to do or where to go from here.
This was all about living my life the way I want to live it but I don't even know how I want to live my life any more.
I've been struggling so hard for so long i just thought I'd found something, I thought it mattered.
Nothing matters.
I'm so stuck.
Why do I do this.