mmm pizza. actually MMM, the bitter taste of depression on the tip of my tongue
allright, so im back doing yet another late night update. right now im sitting here in a hotel room in Dearborn with Mr. Nord, and Tegan Jenkins for DECA. And actually im sort of depressed, not because of where i am right now, but because of where im not. Right now im NOT working, right now im NOT in a good relationship, right now im NOT out of debt, and worst of all, right now im NOT happy with myself. Yes i did get into college, and yes i do have friends... god never fucking mind, i dont even know where im going with this, i just fell really depressed/tired right now and dont know what to do about it. I miss talking to some people i used to hold very close to my heart, and i miss doing things as a group. As a matter of fact Cisco put it the best i have heard when he said there is like two groups both with equal ammounts of friends, and both with equal ammounts of fun but neither has an equal ammount of respect for the other one, and that really dissapoints me. i mean seriously, there is no reason for us all not to get along at least a little. And i think im going to come out and say it because i dont fucking care anymore. R. im a little upset with you because for some reason you dont ever invite me to do anything anymore, and i honestly think its because im still friends with Grant, if im wrong please tell me this because i still DO regard you as a good friend. and Grant i love you to death (like a brother) but there are times when i feel that you treat me like shit (i know i can do the same thing, so when i do please tell me i dont mean to) and i know you dont mean any harm but it does sort of hurt a little. and honestly.... well honestly nothing i think im done now so im going to end this, but know there will be more at a later time