and the reasons beat the shit out of me

[swearingsailor]

So many thoughts I want to share,
but I don't know how to express them all.

The weather is lovely right now.
Who would expect temperatures in the lower 50's in July?
I should throw on a hoodie, sit outside, and ponder about nothing.

27 days until the big move

Comments

[masamichi]

it will eventually all come together.
or,
if you let your mind flow into hypothetical thoughts, you'll throw your mind into a constant string of paradoxs and want to run in a wall head first repedidly until you knock yourself unconsious.

i suffer from the latter, but odds are the first one is what most people will get after thinking things through. and figuring out emotions and whether or not to express them and how.

[swearingsailor]

I love how you always analyze anything and almost everything. I find that writing is my best way to get all my emotions out, and sometimes I just get writer's block :-/

[masamichi]

there is so much that i do not write, and so much stuff that i have written. most of it is posted. and maintained in my other journal. all of the thoughts and analysis i have is in there.

i meditate a lot now.
that is how i expunge what plauges me.
every now and then, alcohol does the trick too.