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im not really quite sure how to feel at this point.
questions i have:
should i be okay with this? should i just let it slide? will you really be faithful? will you really check up on me three times a day? will you promise not to give me a hard time about everything i do?
you forgot my birthday, saw me for about twenty minutes, surprised me at anna's house, didnt hang out with me after like you promised, didnt call me until sunday morning, then called sunday night. told me you had school early, told me to call on my way back. didnt answer, so i called your friend. you were with her. why her? i didnt know you were still friends. i didnt know you still talked, let alone hung out. why did you do that? you didnt even call me later on to see if i was mad. why? why not? why did you do that? of all people in the world to be caught with.. why? why her? why me? why did you forget my birthday? why did you forget my birthday? why did you forget my birthday dylan? why did you forget my fucking birthday? how the fuck did you forget my fucking birthday you selfish asshole?
why would i ever forgive you? why should i give you the satisfaction of knowing that you persuaded me once again to forgive you and let you keep me a secret from everybody? why dylan? why?
why would i forgive you after you forgot my birthday?
why would i forgive you after i walked in on you naked with another girl?
why did i take you to my prom, and let you walk all over me and tell me that you didnt want to take me?
why would i let you keep me a secret from everybody for so long?
why did i let you embarass me so many times when you had parties and didnt invite me?
why did i force myself to believe there was still hope after everything you have done to me?
i gave you everything you wanted and more. i gave you my heart.. my whole heart. and all you ever did for me was insult me. you insulted me in ways i didnt think that somebody who "loved" somebody could do.
i would never do anything to intentionally hurt you.
i love you too much to hurt your feelings. i dont like to see you sad.
why did i think i'd miss you?
questions i have:
should i be okay with this? should i just let it slide? will you really be faithful? will you really check up on me three times a day? will you promise not to give me a hard time about everything i do?
you forgot my birthday, saw me for about twenty minutes, surprised me at anna's house, didnt hang out with me after like you promised, didnt call me until sunday morning, then called sunday night. told me you had school early, told me to call on my way back. didnt answer, so i called your friend. you were with her. why her? i didnt know you were still friends. i didnt know you still talked, let alone hung out. why did you do that? you didnt even call me later on to see if i was mad. why? why not? why did you do that? of all people in the world to be caught with.. why? why her? why me? why did you forget my birthday? why did you forget my birthday? why did you forget my birthday dylan? why did you forget my fucking birthday? how the fuck did you forget my fucking birthday you selfish asshole?
why would i ever forgive you? why should i give you the satisfaction of knowing that you persuaded me once again to forgive you and let you keep me a secret from everybody? why dylan? why?
why would i forgive you after you forgot my birthday?
why would i forgive you after i walked in on you naked with another girl?
why did i take you to my prom, and let you walk all over me and tell me that you didnt want to take me?
why would i let you keep me a secret from everybody for so long?
why did i let you embarass me so many times when you had parties and didnt invite me?
why did i force myself to believe there was still hope after everything you have done to me?
i gave you everything you wanted and more. i gave you my heart.. my whole heart. and all you ever did for me was insult me. you insulted me in ways i didnt think that somebody who "loved" somebody could do.
i would never do anything to intentionally hurt you.
i love you too much to hurt your feelings. i dont like to see you sad.
why did i think i'd miss you?