Awww Coop. =( I'm so unbelieavably heartbroken for you. Crying doesn't help, I am well aware of that fact by now. Obessing over it, doesn't either. But the more I think about him, the more loopholes I find in the fact that he doesn't like me. I start to believe that he does.
No matter how many times I tell myself flat out "He doesn't even like you." I still can't help but feel the rising well of hope in my chest. And that's when I feel the most broken.
But you must let people get close to you. You have to trust them. See, that's why I am so attached to him. He's the first guy in such a long time that taught me to trust again. The reason why I didn't trust people, is a long story. Nonetheless, he was the first guy that I actually trusted. And still trust to this day.
You can't live your life being scared to get hurt. Because you'll only end up missing every special person that wants to get close to you. And when you realize that they were close, and you could have had them, but didn't because you were too afraid...that's when it hurts the most. Cuz trust me, all the ever runs through my head these days are "What if I had done/said/told this..." And it's even worse.
I love you too. Call me, my numbers 9558932. Well that's my cell. I have free weekends now :) J-Dizzle
Crying doesn't help, I am well aware of that fact by now. Obessing over it, doesn't either. But the more I think about him, the more loopholes I find in the fact that he doesn't like me. I start to believe that he does.
No matter how many times I tell myself flat out "He doesn't even like you." I still can't help but feel the rising well of hope in my chest. And that's when I feel the most broken.
But you must let people get close to you. You have to trust them. See, that's why I am so attached to him. He's the first guy in such a long time that taught me to trust again. The reason why I didn't trust people, is a long story. Nonetheless, he was the first guy that I actually trusted. And still trust to this day.
You can't live your life being scared to get hurt. Because you'll only end up missing every special person that wants to get close to you. And when you realize that they were close, and you could have had them, but didn't because you were too afraid...that's when it hurts the most. Cuz trust me, all the ever runs through my head these days are "What if I had done/said/told this..." And it's even worse.
I love you too. Call me, my numbers 9558932. Well that's my cell. I have free weekends now :)
J-Dizzle
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