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in a bit i'm getting toast and puffing my last cigarette before i burrow rabbitly in my warm bed.
university beckons. i had a semi lengthy chat with the undergraduates majoring in philosophy and one who has completed masters; a few were stumped with my questions, while the rest gave me answers that left me even more scoffed/cynical. most of the folks seemed nice. no phenomenally attractive individuals. witty professors.
is there a point in making a point? does everything dialectical eventually or has to arrive to a certain point? a greater truth.. something of a bigger perspective, an extra dimension that simplifies what was once messy/incoherent/supposedly profoundly baffling? OR is it in our egotistical nature to eagerly claim some misintepreted form of intelligence in being able to even "grasp" such concepts and therefore continue to rant and rave and preach something that we.. in the first place.. do not really understand, and hence do not really believe? are we just eager to claim to own ideas that sound wondrous (that are hence mind blowing that are hence grand that then MUST be true)?
it could be all in our ego.
in our beliefs we neither need attack or defene. we need pure proof or faith. we need to KNOW. until then, it is wiser to choose to believe that one knows absolutely nothing. faith is a slippery concept. faith is something that CANNOT be reasoned. that does not mean that it is false, or a delusion. if the only things that we can or should or must believe in must be subject to the test of reason than that is ludicrous. for if only the mind is to unravel every single mystery in this universe, than what good is the soul? it exists for a purpose.. i do not claim to KNOW what that is, but all through my life i'm making a wild guess that it is to answer or guide when the mind cannot.
why all this talk? im just in the mood. you know how i can get when i get in these moods.
many profs talked more on how we could gain invaluable lessons/skills such as systematic thinking, analytical skills et cetera...sure, they may be useful, but they shouldn't be the main showcase of university. else it would just be so.... motherfuckin dull. im in it purely for the CONTENT. cos im passionate like that i suppose. cos there's just so much to learn and i don't have the time or patience for crap like fucking structure and rigid and mindless analysis.
i'm all for aesthetic and the power of knowledge. the way the mind works is not a matter to me. it is what the mind works on that i care about. psychology never interested me. its like trying to hack into gods computer. who cares??! i just want to USE that computer. you know what i mean?
i better stop now. get that last cigarette. and drift to slumber.
university beckons. i had a semi lengthy chat with the undergraduates majoring in philosophy and one who has completed masters; a few were stumped with my questions, while the rest gave me answers that left me even more scoffed/cynical. most of the folks seemed nice. no phenomenally attractive individuals. witty professors.
is there a point in making a point? does everything dialectical eventually or has to arrive to a certain point? a greater truth.. something of a bigger perspective, an extra dimension that simplifies what was once messy/incoherent/supposedly profoundly baffling? OR is it in our egotistical nature to eagerly claim some misintepreted form of intelligence in being able to even "grasp" such concepts and therefore continue to rant and rave and preach something that we.. in the first place.. do not really understand, and hence do not really believe? are we just eager to claim to own ideas that sound wondrous (that are hence mind blowing that are hence grand that then MUST be true)?
it could be all in our ego.
in our beliefs we neither need attack or defene. we need pure proof or faith. we need to KNOW. until then, it is wiser to choose to believe that one knows absolutely nothing. faith is a slippery concept. faith is something that CANNOT be reasoned. that does not mean that it is false, or a delusion. if the only things that we can or should or must believe in must be subject to the test of reason than that is ludicrous. for if only the mind is to unravel every single mystery in this universe, than what good is the soul? it exists for a purpose.. i do not claim to KNOW what that is, but all through my life i'm making a wild guess that it is to answer or guide when the mind cannot.
why all this talk? im just in the mood. you know how i can get when i get in these moods.
many profs talked more on how we could gain invaluable lessons/skills such as systematic thinking, analytical skills et cetera...sure, they may be useful, but they shouldn't be the main showcase of university. else it would just be so.... motherfuckin dull. im in it purely for the CONTENT. cos im passionate like that i suppose. cos there's just so much to learn and i don't have the time or patience for crap like fucking structure and rigid and mindless analysis.
i'm all for aesthetic and the power of knowledge. the way the mind works is not a matter to me. it is what the mind works on that i care about. psychology never interested me. its like trying to hack into gods computer. who cares??! i just want to USE that computer. you know what i mean?
i better stop now. get that last cigarette. and drift to slumber.