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Forewarning, this is going to be a long post.
So I'm going to start of with doing one of those things where you pick x number of people and write about them without giving names. If you want to guess as to if one of them is you go for it, I don't care, but I can't garauntee I'll tell you if you are right.
1. You are a great friend and I'm so glad that we've become close again. We have hit our bumps, but I know that you will be there for me when I need you. When you told me that you had changed, I didn't believe you because I hadn't seen anything positive, and then we didn't talk for a long time, but now I can see that you were right. I have come to adore spending time with you and I cherish the friendship we have reacquired. I hope things work out with you and him and that he gets a move on things.
2. I miss you. I don't know if you realize how much I miss seeing you everyday. But we talk usually everyday, if not, at least 3 times a week. Your friendship has meant so much to me over the past few years and I don't know where I would be without you. If things get tough I know I can talk to you and even if you can't help you give your support. I have always looked up to you and admired how you stuck to your morals and values.
3. I can't believe you did that. After all the time you spent bragging about how you didn't and how none of your friends did. And then to brag about how you did. To make it worse, you make ME feel bad about it. Do you realize that you made me want to cry the rest of the night after you said that to me. Probably not. You've changed so much that I don't know what to do. We still have fun when we hang out and I think you are a good friend, but at the same time if this is how you are going to be I don't know if this friendship will last.
4. You, too, have changed and not for the better. I'm glad you didn't stretch it out but at the same time I don't like how you handled it. And now it seems that all you do is hang out with the people who made it the worst. I miss the old you, and no matter what you say, every knows that this is not "who you are".
5. You are not who I thought you were. You are not as innocent as you have shown, and you def don't have the right morals. Supporting sluttiness and pawning gifts is not cool, at any time.
6. You creep me out, and I would appreciate if you stayed away from me. Ok, not really, but you can be creepy at times. I think you need to learn your boundaries a little better. I'm not the only one that thinks this and I know you don't have bad intentions, but sometimes you ignore personal space and it's kinda an awkward turtle situation. I also think you need to not be such a woman at times, you have to admit to when you are wrong sometimes, because when you don't you just look like an a**.
7. you also go a little overboard on the personal space thing but in a different way. Sometimes I'm not in the sentimental, touchy-feely, let's hug everyone mood and I would appreciate if you understood that. Then you also get annoyed when people don't agree with you and you assume that means evryone is against you when really they just may be handling things in a different way.
8. You drive me nuts, I love you, but sometimes I can't stand you. I know you want to be yourself, which I respect, but there ARE times and places that you need to be respectful of others and tone it down. That means when people tell you to shut up in school , it means shut up. You get defensive and pissy when you try to study (on teh rare occassions), but you don't understand when it's not you.
9. I really like you. I haven't seen you in a while, but I constantly find myself thinking about you, not in a creepy way. Sometimes I think that things would be easier if I told you how I felt, but sadly I don't have that confidence, and I don't want to ruin our friendship. At times I think it is so apparent though that I feel since you don't respond you either don't want to know or you know but want to avoid it. Maybe at a different time things will work, but I also can't sit around waiting for you.
10. Being friends with you sent me on a turmoil of emotions, and I can honestly say I feel it was emotional abuse. We were such good friends and so most of the time I could ignore what you put me through a lot of the time. But then you decided that our friendship was over yet still got upset when I didn't call you or talk to you. It hurts me still to see you, on the random times taht I do, and I don't know if you can understand that. Lately it's been tearing me up more and I don't know why it is hitting me now more than usual. I've been having dreams about us talking about clearing up the past and each time I have one of these dreams while I'm having it I am all about making things right, but by the time the dream ends I feel just as bad as when you used to hurt me.
Ok, I'm done with that.
So my mom is supposed to retire this May. Her plant closes on May 31st (one week before I graduate). Today she came home and it seems as though they are now getting rid of her job in Wixom, and they want her out by Feb 1st. That means in 24 days she would have to be done working. :(
This Psych project is killing me. It's so draining.
I only have 2 finals :) Math- :( , and Psych- :) .
CREW MEETING TOMORROW!
POSTER on the 19th at my house! I'll get you more info later, but I talked to Louis today and it seems as though he can have them by then.
>::Psychotic::<
P.S. I think I might have a slight case of hypocandria..
That was serious.
So I'm going to start of with doing one of those things where you pick x number of people and write about them without giving names. If you want to guess as to if one of them is you go for it, I don't care, but I can't garauntee I'll tell you if you are right.
1. You are a great friend and I'm so glad that we've become close again. We have hit our bumps, but I know that you will be there for me when I need you. When you told me that you had changed, I didn't believe you because I hadn't seen anything positive, and then we didn't talk for a long time, but now I can see that you were right. I have come to adore spending time with you and I cherish the friendship we have reacquired. I hope things work out with you and him and that he gets a move on things.
2. I miss you. I don't know if you realize how much I miss seeing you everyday. But we talk usually everyday, if not, at least 3 times a week. Your friendship has meant so much to me over the past few years and I don't know where I would be without you. If things get tough I know I can talk to you and even if you can't help you give your support. I have always looked up to you and admired how you stuck to your morals and values.
3. I can't believe you did that. After all the time you spent bragging about how you didn't and how none of your friends did. And then to brag about how you did. To make it worse, you make ME feel bad about it. Do you realize that you made me want to cry the rest of the night after you said that to me. Probably not. You've changed so much that I don't know what to do. We still have fun when we hang out and I think you are a good friend, but at the same time if this is how you are going to be I don't know if this friendship will last.
4. You, too, have changed and not for the better. I'm glad you didn't stretch it out but at the same time I don't like how you handled it. And now it seems that all you do is hang out with the people who made it the worst. I miss the old you, and no matter what you say, every knows that this is not "who you are".
5. You are not who I thought you were. You are not as innocent as you have shown, and you def don't have the right morals. Supporting sluttiness and pawning gifts is not cool, at any time.
6. You creep me out, and I would appreciate if you stayed away from me. Ok, not really, but you can be creepy at times. I think you need to learn your boundaries a little better. I'm not the only one that thinks this and I know you don't have bad intentions, but sometimes you ignore personal space and it's kinda an awkward turtle situation. I also think you need to not be such a woman at times, you have to admit to when you are wrong sometimes, because when you don't you just look like an a**.
7. you also go a little overboard on the personal space thing but in a different way. Sometimes I'm not in the sentimental, touchy-feely, let's hug everyone mood and I would appreciate if you understood that. Then you also get annoyed when people don't agree with you and you assume that means evryone is against you when really they just may be handling things in a different way.
8. You drive me nuts, I love you, but sometimes I can't stand you. I know you want to be yourself, which I respect, but there ARE times and places that you need to be respectful of others and tone it down. That means when people tell you to shut up in school , it means shut up. You get defensive and pissy when you try to study (on teh rare occassions), but you don't understand when it's not you.
9. I really like you. I haven't seen you in a while, but I constantly find myself thinking about you, not in a creepy way. Sometimes I think that things would be easier if I told you how I felt, but sadly I don't have that confidence, and I don't want to ruin our friendship. At times I think it is so apparent though that I feel since you don't respond you either don't want to know or you know but want to avoid it. Maybe at a different time things will work, but I also can't sit around waiting for you.
10. Being friends with you sent me on a turmoil of emotions, and I can honestly say I feel it was emotional abuse. We were such good friends and so most of the time I could ignore what you put me through a lot of the time. But then you decided that our friendship was over yet still got upset when I didn't call you or talk to you. It hurts me still to see you, on the random times taht I do, and I don't know if you can understand that. Lately it's been tearing me up more and I don't know why it is hitting me now more than usual. I've been having dreams about us talking about clearing up the past and each time I have one of these dreams while I'm having it I am all about making things right, but by the time the dream ends I feel just as bad as when you used to hurt me.
Ok, I'm done with that.
So my mom is supposed to retire this May. Her plant closes on May 31st (one week before I graduate). Today she came home and it seems as though they are now getting rid of her job in Wixom, and they want her out by Feb 1st. That means in 24 days she would have to be done working. :(
This Psych project is killing me. It's so draining.
I only have 2 finals :) Math- :( , and Psych- :) .
CREW MEETING TOMORROW!
POSTER on the 19th at my house! I'll get you more info later, but I talked to Louis today and it seems as though he can have them by then.
>::Psychotic::<
P.S. I think I might have a slight case of hypocandria..
That was serious.