Ya, pointless self relization
I'm tired of thinking too much, it makes me so unhappy. I don't mean thinking in a scholastic since but overdwelling on a particular object in my life. I think that's what's making me emotionally tired which is physically draining. I need a way to relax and I used to do it by playing videogames for days on end. I haven't really done that in so long. I'd get bored and sit somewhere, try to watch TV and lose interest then start thinking "Hey, that ticket you got just won't go away and there's nothing I can do about it untill November 1st..." Ya, I've been the stupidest person I could have been this past year, and you know just typing it here helps free up a lot of the pressure I get from a nervous tension from my chest. I think I'm over anxious possibly even have social anxiety. People scare the hell out of me, I love going out and having fun, and before I didn't have too much of a problem, but I worry about going out, what's going to happen and all that. I am always worried. It's just a terrible way to go about my life.
But hey, it could be worse I suppose. If I act now I can clear up some of the problems I have to worry about now, I know there's some things that are to late to be changed, but like Aidan said last night when his situation arose "You win some, you lose some". Such a cliche thing to say in a situation like that, and oddly... It does work to tell yourself that.
On a side note, anyone else get cheered up by a pissed off blue kitty? I know I do.
But hey, it could be worse I suppose. If I act now I can clear up some of the problems I have to worry about now, I know there's some things that are to late to be changed, but like Aidan said last night when his situation arose "You win some, you lose some". Such a cliche thing to say in a situation like that, and oddly... It does work to tell yourself that.
On a side note, anyone else get cheered up by a pissed off blue kitty? I know I do.