I am the cause of all your problems..
Yesterday.
School was okay, I think I failed the civics test.
I think I failed as a friend.
I don't remember whether I asked Nicole or Ali for permission to post those pictures..
I also don't recall parents reading my journal.
I've never had anyone's parents hate me.
I've never had anyone's parents yell at me.
I'm always the nice girl. The good example.
When really I'm a shithead.
I feel bad that my parents don't know about it.
That one person is getting punished.
I also forget..my parents don't punish me.
I might get hit, I might get yelled at, denied a ride somewhere. But never "punished" in a sense.
It all happened on my mom's birthday
My mom is really an awesome person, I don't give her enough credit at all.
She drives me all over the place games, shows, friends houses etc. She buys me, usually, whatever I want.
She comes out at 1230, 100 at night to come get me. When she was sleeping herself.
She lets me go to concerts on school nights.
She tells my dad little white lies to make him not come down on me as hard.
She sticks up for me when my dad is mindlessly picking on me.
Everyone tells me how lucky I am to have her.
I'm just realizing it now.
Now that I've decided to treat my mom better, I need to treat my friends better.
I'm so sorry
She probably won't read this, she probably isn't allowed to read, hear, see anything associated with me.
But honnie, if you see this, I love you. And I'm sorry.
Nothing I can say can make up for anything I've done.
But is it still too late to try?
-michele
School was okay, I think I failed the civics test.
I think I failed as a friend.
I don't remember whether I asked Nicole or Ali for permission to post those pictures..
I also don't recall parents reading my journal.
I've never had anyone's parents hate me.
I've never had anyone's parents yell at me.
I'm always the nice girl. The good example.
When really I'm a shithead.
I feel bad that my parents don't know about it.
That one person is getting punished.
I also forget..my parents don't punish me.
I might get hit, I might get yelled at, denied a ride somewhere. But never "punished" in a sense.
It all happened on my mom's birthday
My mom is really an awesome person, I don't give her enough credit at all.
She drives me all over the place games, shows, friends houses etc. She buys me, usually, whatever I want.
She comes out at 1230, 100 at night to come get me. When she was sleeping herself.
She lets me go to concerts on school nights.
She tells my dad little white lies to make him not come down on me as hard.
She sticks up for me when my dad is mindlessly picking on me.
Everyone tells me how lucky I am to have her.
I'm just realizing it now.
Now that I've decided to treat my mom better, I need to treat my friends better.
I'm so sorry
She probably won't read this, she probably isn't allowed to read, hear, see anything associated with me.
But honnie, if you see this, I love you. And I'm sorry.
Nothing I can say can make up for anything I've done.
But is it still too late to try?
-michele