Diary, Page 001 . Didn't make it ...
Did I even succeed? I don't know. I ... I saw Lorelei; he spoke to me again. And Asch was there. I saw him, I felt him. He was right there, in my arms. I was holding him. He felt ... cold. No ... it wasn't right. I don't want that. I don't want this! Asch ...
You promised ... I ... I told you, I'd never stop grieving if you didn't come back. That Natalia would never stop grieving.
Natalia ...? Guy, Tear, Anise, Jade, Mieu ... all of them ... I promised all of them that I'd come back, but I'm the same as him, aren't I? I really am his replica, making the same promises that I know I can't keep. They all knew ... I tried to hide it, but they all knew, anyway. I was fading away. I'm so stupid. I just didn't want to worry anyone, and they kept playing along. Who was I kidding?
I'm sorry, guys. I'm sorry for just disappearing on you. But I did it, I ... I have to have. Lorelei has to be free. And maybe ... maybe he saved Asch, too. Yeah. Yeah, he ... he had to have.
I don't like this, though. Just being here, not knowing what's happening, not knowing for sure that everything's alright now back home. Van's gone, so that's one thing, right? He's gone, and he can't hurt anyone there ever again. There's no more replica world, the fomicry that they were using to make Eldrant is stopped. It's done.
I hope things go smoothly from there. That promise to give the remaining replicas a good life, to give them a place in the world ... can we really give that to them? They didn't ask to be born ... we didn't ask to be made. Now I can't even make sure that they'll have a good life there. Everyone, I'm counting on you. Please help make things go smoothly in my place.
Smoothly ... smoothly? Will that really be able to happen? Do I even have the right to ask for that? Just a replica ... no. No, I'm ... I've become my own person. Asch even recognized that, I think. We've become two separate people. Why did it have to happen at the end? Why couldn't it have been sooner?
It's ... going to be alright in Auldrant, though. I have to trust that they'll be able to make sure things are alright there. I mean, they're all great, every last one of them. They won't let things go wrong again. Natalia definitely won't let it happen; she'll do anything she can to make sure that Kimlasca and Malkuth remain at peace. And Anise ... she'll help out at Daath, and I'm sure Florian will, too. All of them ... they're all strong enough to. I trust you guys.
I just wish I was with you.
Damnit ...
You promised ... I ... I told you, I'd never stop grieving if you didn't come back. That Natalia would never stop grieving.
Natalia ...? Guy, Tear, Anise, Jade, Mieu ... all of them ... I promised all of them that I'd come back, but I'm the same as him, aren't I? I really am his replica, making the same promises that I know I can't keep. They all knew ... I tried to hide it, but they all knew, anyway. I was fading away. I'm so stupid. I just didn't want to worry anyone, and they kept playing along. Who was I kidding?
I'm sorry, guys. I'm sorry for just disappearing on you. But I did it, I ... I have to have. Lorelei has to be free. And maybe ... maybe he saved Asch, too. Yeah. Yeah, he ... he had to have.
I don't like this, though. Just being here, not knowing what's happening, not knowing for sure that everything's alright now back home. Van's gone, so that's one thing, right? He's gone, and he can't hurt anyone there ever again. There's no more replica world, the fomicry that they were using to make Eldrant is stopped. It's done.
I hope things go smoothly from there. That promise to give the remaining replicas a good life, to give them a place in the world ... can we really give that to them? They didn't ask to be born ... we didn't ask to be made. Now I can't even make sure that they'll have a good life there. Everyone, I'm counting on you. Please help make things go smoothly in my place.
Smoothly ... smoothly? Will that really be able to happen? Do I even have the right to ask for that? Just a replica ... no. No, I'm ... I've become my own person. Asch even recognized that, I think. We've become two separate people. Why did it have to happen at the end? Why couldn't it have been sooner?
It's ... going to be alright in Auldrant, though. I have to trust that they'll be able to make sure things are alright there. I mean, they're all great, every last one of them. They won't let things go wrong again. Natalia definitely won't let it happen; she'll do anything she can to make sure that Kimlasca and Malkuth remain at peace. And Anise ... she'll help out at Daath, and I'm sure Florian will, too. All of them ... they're all strong enough to. I trust you guys.
I just wish I was with you.
Damnit ...