Bi-yearly update
Been a while, guys. And a lot of things have happened, some of which I'm not quite proud of.
Since I disappeared from tech, I traveled down to tampa to work at a pharmacy as a Pharmacy service associate. I became one of the best employees there while Tech continued to sentence me to doom. Yep, I left them, and they still felt the need to put me on probation until the end of the summer. I stayed down at the pharmacy (living with cousins of course) renewing my WOW subscription, working, and sleeping until I came home sometime late in may. At which point my girlfriend decided to leave me for someone more interesting or maybe it was more interested, I don't really care which.
Now, I'm at home, 20, mildly depressed, taking classes at perimeter and really missing all of the friends I had in high school, and the ones I still have who just live oh-so-far away.
Did I mention unemployed? I left my first and only job which I excelled at in Tampa.
Though on the brighter side of things, Ip, Laurel, Bobby, Kelly, and Paul (the new kid in the group) have done their best to make my transition to 20 as smooth and enjoyable as possible.
Ran my first AQ raid the other day, and Ip helped quite a bit when trying to organize the raid for the rajaxx fight. Wraithen's getting pretty leet, and the new rogue revamp is sure to but a little bounce back in his step.
I've spent a lot of time wondering where to go next. I found out the other day that Siobhain is engaged, which makes me happy for her. I'm glad this boyfriend had the intelligence to realize how valuable she is. On the topic of weddings, I had to miss alex's. He'd apparently invited me, but I never recieved his invitation. It makes me really sad that I missed it. I was looking forward to meeting the girl he chose to marry. Still need to find him a wedding gift so I can show my face without being totally ashamed of myself.
Siobhain's new fiance has just graduated from basic training too- more gratulations to him. I'm considering the military, if only as a means to get out of my house and find a purpose. Though I'll admit, I'm a bit reluctant to give up the luxuries i take for granted right now. It's sad to say, but for myself, I choose those luxuries over self respect.
I've begun noticing what my parents have known for a while. If I'm distracted enough, I forget about eating. I'm not Anorexic or anything, I'm just not extremely motivated by hunger. I think once I got past the pain of hunger eating away at my stomach, starving may be the easiest way to kill oneself. Though self starvation is the only method which doesn't condemn you. According to Hinduism, that's because you have ample time to think about your course of action. If you want to die bad enough to starve yourself to death, I suppose you'd have earned it by the time you finally kick the bucket. Not that I want to starve myself to death... I just forget to eat sometimes. Its odd. Really.
I've been trying to work on my writing, but It just doesn't seem to be going anywhere... I love Blaithe and the other Characters, but it's so hard to keep up a believable script without making it sound totally repetitive and whatnot.
That's all for now, I figure that this has been quite enough writing for a single entry.
~Ciao for now.
Since I disappeared from tech, I traveled down to tampa to work at a pharmacy as a Pharmacy service associate. I became one of the best employees there while Tech continued to sentence me to doom. Yep, I left them, and they still felt the need to put me on probation until the end of the summer. I stayed down at the pharmacy (living with cousins of course) renewing my WOW subscription, working, and sleeping until I came home sometime late in may. At which point my girlfriend decided to leave me for someone more interesting or maybe it was more interested, I don't really care which.
Now, I'm at home, 20, mildly depressed, taking classes at perimeter and really missing all of the friends I had in high school, and the ones I still have who just live oh-so-far away.
Did I mention unemployed? I left my first and only job which I excelled at in Tampa.
Though on the brighter side of things, Ip, Laurel, Bobby, Kelly, and Paul (the new kid in the group) have done their best to make my transition to 20 as smooth and enjoyable as possible.
Ran my first AQ raid the other day, and Ip helped quite a bit when trying to organize the raid for the rajaxx fight. Wraithen's getting pretty leet, and the new rogue revamp is sure to but a little bounce back in his step.
I've spent a lot of time wondering where to go next. I found out the other day that Siobhain is engaged, which makes me happy for her. I'm glad this boyfriend had the intelligence to realize how valuable she is. On the topic of weddings, I had to miss alex's. He'd apparently invited me, but I never recieved his invitation. It makes me really sad that I missed it. I was looking forward to meeting the girl he chose to marry. Still need to find him a wedding gift so I can show my face without being totally ashamed of myself.
Siobhain's new fiance has just graduated from basic training too- more gratulations to him. I'm considering the military, if only as a means to get out of my house and find a purpose. Though I'll admit, I'm a bit reluctant to give up the luxuries i take for granted right now. It's sad to say, but for myself, I choose those luxuries over self respect.
I've begun noticing what my parents have known for a while. If I'm distracted enough, I forget about eating. I'm not Anorexic or anything, I'm just not extremely motivated by hunger. I think once I got past the pain of hunger eating away at my stomach, starving may be the easiest way to kill oneself. Though self starvation is the only method which doesn't condemn you. According to Hinduism, that's because you have ample time to think about your course of action. If you want to die bad enough to starve yourself to death, I suppose you'd have earned it by the time you finally kick the bucket. Not that I want to starve myself to death... I just forget to eat sometimes. Its odd. Really.
I've been trying to work on my writing, but It just doesn't seem to be going anywhere... I love Blaithe and the other Characters, but it's so hard to keep up a believable script without making it sound totally repetitive and whatnot.
That's all for now, I figure that this has been quite enough writing for a single entry.
~Ciao for now.