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i let him choke me with the horse in his veins, and honestly, it was like hooves pounding the dirt in, sweat flying, when he fucked me. him whispering ‘you’re beautiful’, with his filthy fingers digging into my arms, my hips. coming so hard, it was like waves were crashing inside me, never going to stop. tide never going down. and knowing i wasn’t beautiful. this was not beautiful.
i was once in heaven, i think. remember the vanilla baths and crying with you inside me, your own tears staining my naked chest? if i remember anything, it was that the sun orbited around us and never set. then all of our angels retired and died and i was sent to hell.
when i came to, i was in a room covered in a film of old cigarette smoke, listening to myself give birth to waves of pleasure. as he rolled off of me and pulled me into his arms, i buried you in a soft cloth and placed the sun in there with you. i crowned a junkie as my prince, and i am a queen, trying on a smile in the dark.
i was once in heaven, i think. remember the vanilla baths and crying with you inside me, your own tears staining my naked chest? if i remember anything, it was that the sun orbited around us and never set. then all of our angels retired and died and i was sent to hell.
when i came to, i was in a room covered in a film of old cigarette smoke, listening to myself give birth to waves of pleasure. as he rolled off of me and pulled me into his arms, i buried you in a soft cloth and placed the sun in there with you. i crowned a junkie as my prince, and i am a queen, trying on a smile in the dark.