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i think it was when i was shaking, sitting alone in a room at my doctor's office waiting for him to come back in so he could check if i had breast cancer that i really felt myself give in to hating you for not giving one iota of a fuck. all i could think about was how i had only wanted to talk to you about how scared i was and how you couldn't even bother. and then i stopped giving a fuck too.