wat ever
so yeah that whole thing with Matt went down the tubes... and on the worst day of my life too. So Friday this is exactly how my day went. I woke up LATE and so i was rushing out of the house... and my mom stayed home sick and well i was driving to school and all of a sudden I get pulled over by abrazo and chessman. I was like WTF did i do cuz i was going the speed limit so i called my mom and told her i got pulled over and wat nt and the cop tells me its cuz i didnt stop at the stop sign. But i did. Wat ever... anyways so i was all ok today is going to suck i started crying i got to school liuke 20 mins late but they excused my tardy BECAUSE i had a ticket... i cried again... then i get into 1st block it wasnt too bad except the fact the everyone knew cuz I texted three people in that class telling them why i was late so everyone laughed at me when i got in. The only one concerned really was Leigh he texted me asking if i was ok... and not to feel sad. Well then i go to Second and i stop by and say hi to matt and he was acting weird and all his friends were looking at me so i felt weird. So i go to Dance class and wat not and it was correography day and i thought it was going to be fun and exciting... well i get in there and Amber a girl from my group starts acting like she knows Everything in the world and makes me even more mad and she doesnt stop so i told that group that i wasnt going to do that dance and i was going to do a solo and i really ment it and Nikki comes up to me and says you really need to come back... its been a LONG week... i was all well its been a long day so watever shes all yeah right i was all you try getting pulled over... yeah she shut up after that so i went back with the group and told them not to mess with me. And they did... so i said i wouldnt be with them next friday... they got mad but watever. so next is Acting and we had to do our scenes and i thought i had mine good and memorized but i lost it all when i got up there... If my day wasnt so shitty i would have done better so our scene was done and i was all ok the worst is over... but it really wasnt i was called into the AP's office and i was waiting there wondering why i was in there. And then finally he calls me back and i was really confussed and he gave me a candy... Mr Joice is REALLY nice. I dont see why everyone hates him. Anyways and he gives me ASD cuz i was tardy 10 minutes to my first block class like last week and i was... but i didnt know that counted for an unexcused absence... So i have ASD on thursday... so i walk out to lunch crying and Ky and Dave are wondering wats the matter and i tell them evertyhing to this point then i turn around and Chris Coan got jumped by manual chavez and he was on the ground spitting up blood it was gross so anyways i go up to allison and she is with alex and kelley and i tell her that i now had ASD and alex is all flirting with her and i felt all alone... even though i HAD a boyfriend he wasnt there... and I just wanted to be held so badly. But of course i had no one, and this is not bashing on allison cuz i love her dearly. Anyways so i walk sadly to humanties and i thought ok this is going to be better but then i text matt cuz i was thinking of how he really isnt close to me like at the fire drill i was leaning on him and he really didnt do anything but STAND there..and he never had a conversation with me... I mean It was like boring so i told him i didnt want a boyfriend on top of stress. He said he was thinking the same too cuz we never saw eachother... which is BULL SHIT! cuz we saw eachother alot... so yeah and then I go to work and my manager damian was being a major ass. And then he realized that i wasnt feeling well and asked wat was arong and i was practically in tears and i said i had the worst night of my life... and then i was quiet and he goes... Oh... well i'm sorry i ws being an ass to you.. i feel bad now... i was all its fine. and he walked away.. So i went home and my intention was to talk to cole online but since my night sucked i was tired so i got home and went to bed. So yesterday was better i tried to make it better I woke up just in time to get ready for work and without an alarm clock and I got there at 10 and worked till 4... and matt showed up and I didnt speak a word to him... he didnt try to either. So michelle got mad at that and Me and hulem were PISSED off cuz he was over on ovens and My and Hulem and Peaches need to get trained b4 him... cuz Peaches first and then Hulem and then Me. Me and Hulem agree on that. We were so pissed off. Anyways... and finally 4 comes around and i get home... I texted Easton... we talked about stuff it sucked but then my mom said that we were going to go to the movies so i sat there eating my sub from Dions and then cleaned the bathroom and took a Shower. Then we were going to go to the dollar theater and it was sold out so we went home and we stopped at a store and I got kenny a sticker that said U GO GURL and we stopped by his house and I went in and like no one was there. So yeah but me and Mom rented movies so i had to go home and watch movies with her and we rented The Termanal, Sleepover, and The Village. Yeah i fell asleep through The Village so yea I went to bed But while we were watching movies Matt texted me saying... why did you realy want it over so I told him because he was acting weird and couldnt talk to me... and stuff and hes all yeah i dunno why i was acting like that. and I was all well i guess its just like every other guy i like they all treat me like shit... and hes all i know im sorry but one day youll find a guy who wont and i was all yeah right and he kept mentioning how he wants me back I told him I cant believe you would do anything anyway... and i stopped giving second chances after ray screwed up 3 times and i told you i refuse t get with anyone elso cuz no i wont have a chance cuz there is no point in bothering, there is no such thing as love, its just a word that causes emotion and makes people hurt, its a word that is full of expectations that are never met. well wat ever to him. Then he texts me this morning and woke me up and he said do you wanna know why i was acting like that i was all yeah and hes all cuz i thought you were leading me on and I was all ah ok well wat ever obviously you didnt trust my decision and every one of those texts i sent you about how i like you so yeah i wouldnt have said yes of course when you asked me if it was official if i didnt like you but wat ever. Ahyways hes stupid. God... well Today my katie might come over.. and were getting a CD burner its SO exciting I cant wait.. and Oh i go to work tonight at 5... woo hoo... ok see yaLL!