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wow i havent updated in 3 months.! anyways.. as sum people know.. me and josh arent together anymore.:( 3 weeks ago he broke up with me. its all my fault too. i hated myself. i guess i put my anger out onto him from my mom. i didnt mean it, i didnt realize it. i am so madd at myself. Josh was the best. what we had was wonderful. and i ruined it. 8 months all gone. it feels like he ripped my heart out and stepped on it a million times. i cryed for 4 days straight, no stopping, i even had to leave school early. i couldnt eat, sleep, i pretty much couldnt do anything. i felt like i lost everything, i felt helpless. these were just some of my feelings. it fuking sucked.
but things got better after a lil while. i've been goin alot now and having fun. now that i think about it though, maybe its a good thing that happened cause now i'm having fun and makin more friends and meeting new people. me and josh hung out every day and did absolutly nothing.
i've been goin to the movies, and goin to brothers, the skatepark, hangnin out wit john and everybody and just having fun! i'm lovin it!
talkin to someone.. wonder how thats gonna turn out.. told him i'm not ready for another boyfriend.. seems like he understands, which is cool.
ok well peace out jigga scout
but things got better after a lil while. i've been goin alot now and having fun. now that i think about it though, maybe its a good thing that happened cause now i'm having fun and makin more friends and meeting new people. me and josh hung out every day and did absolutly nothing.
i've been goin to the movies, and goin to brothers, the skatepark, hangnin out wit john and everybody and just having fun! i'm lovin it!
talkin to someone.. wonder how thats gonna turn out.. told him i'm not ready for another boyfriend.. seems like he understands, which is cool.
ok well peace out jigga scout