It Was Worth The Wasted Gas..... Circle Once And Head Back Home
Had to work today.... pretty lame and un-eventful (except for a visit from Steve and some delicious coffee) and the fact that I got to see Nichole! :) I left like usual at 4:00, got half-way to school, then turned around. I got the worst stomach ache and seeing as how I hate Anthropology, it wasn't a hard decision to make.... Mmmm go to school and feel sick in class or go home, do homework for that class, and take medicine? Gee, that's a tough one. Really, I should have gone and struggled through it, but I just have no motivation or will. I think, internally, I've already given up on this semester. It's been so dreadful and I've been so stressed out, I'm just getting tired of having to fight through every day. I keep drawing to all of my friends and try to forget about everything else in my life but I can't, it's always going to be there and I just have to face reality... The real world sucks, you have to deal with it. Wish it was an easier journey.
-Destroying myself from deep within,
Where selfish thoughts and desires begin.
I push all my dreams in a corner and put my heart on a shelf,
It's like I'd rather die than just be happy with myself.
Should be basking in the sunshine, but instead I dwell in the night
Because in the dark I can keep the secrets I've locked up tight.
You can't knock me down, I'm face first on the ground already.
You can't make me move, I'll move when I'm ready.... apparently I'm not that
steady on my feet, probably because my strength decided to retreat.
They dripped their speeches in honey, no one told me life was like this.
Wish time could turn back to where I was satisfied, wish I didn't care
About what I would miss growing up and changing into someone new, this has to
Be the hardest thing I'll ever do... Please tell me everything, eventually,
Will be okay, because I can't keep on going, living life this way.
-Destroying myself from deep within,
Where selfish thoughts and desires begin.
I push all my dreams in a corner and put my heart on a shelf,
It's like I'd rather die than just be happy with myself.
Should be basking in the sunshine, but instead I dwell in the night
Because in the dark I can keep the secrets I've locked up tight.
You can't knock me down, I'm face first on the ground already.
You can't make me move, I'll move when I'm ready.... apparently I'm not that
steady on my feet, probably because my strength decided to retreat.
They dripped their speeches in honey, no one told me life was like this.
Wish time could turn back to where I was satisfied, wish I didn't care
About what I would miss growing up and changing into someone new, this has to
Be the hardest thing I'll ever do... Please tell me everything, eventually,
Will be okay, because I can't keep on going, living life this way.