How Do I Show You How You Make Me Feel?
I am so buried under false ideals and hopes and promises... I don't know where to go from here. What do you do when you can't trust your heart anymore? What do you listen to when your head tells you a million different things and all of them sound right? I have so many things I want but none of them feel like they are in my grasp. I have so many dreams but can any of them really come true? I think I am suffering from a lack of sleep, a lack of caring, a lack of love. I want school to be over with. I want Christmas to go away. I don't even feel "Christmasy" which is so unlike me at this time of year. Right now I feel like cursing the daylight and living in the dark.... Maybe I am already doing that.