piece me back together (oneshot)
Title: piece me back together
Genre: (fail) model!AU
Rating: pg-13 (ish)
Pairing: baekyeol
Length: 5178 words
Summary: As long as Park Chanyeol is by his side, Byun Baekhyun is fine with slowly destroying himself with the glamour of standing in front of the camera.
( This is where he belongs, shining under the lights for the entire world to see. )
Genre: (fail) model!AU
Rating: pg-13 (ish)
Pairing: baekyeol
Length: 5178 words
Summary: As long as Park Chanyeol is by his side, Byun Baekhyun is fine with slowly destroying himself with the glamour of standing in front of the camera.
( This is where he belongs, shining under the lights for the entire world to see. )
What had he just done? Hair flipping. He’s never going to be socially accepted by others again. Hair flipping.
YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF BAEKHYUN
“Very good, but your hair flip needs to be a bit more authentic. Remember, hair flipping is an art. You have to go with the flow and lose yourself in the beauty and the moment of the flip. It has to look perfect-”
I CAN'T OTL
Baekhyun forces a smile. Corners of mouth go up. Lips stretch over teeth, and cheeks bunch together under his eyes. Vision diminishes as his eyes disappear into crescents. Eye smile. A smile isn’t sincere unless the eyes also smile.
He doesn’t say anything.
My heartstrings at this. ;A;
So when Chanyeol suddenly kisses him in the middle of a filming break, desperation laced in his actions, neither one of them completely aware of what they’re doing, Baekhyun isn’t even surprised because he realizes that the sensation of Chanyeol’s lips pressed against his is the only thing that feels right in the midst of all the wrong.
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Quitting. Leaving the camera and the posters and advertisements with his face on them pasted all over the city. Never again feeling the rush of excitement under the lights and never again hearing the shouts of the director as he runs through his script and poses for photos. Forsaking what he’s meant for. What Baekhyun does is his addiction, his life, even if it’s destroying him bit by bit. He hates himself for this, but this is where he belongs, the only place where he has ever felt at home. Even if it’s harmful to his health, even if he dies young, he wouldn’t have it any other way. Baekhyun truly breaks down this time, his words escaping his mouth in a whimper as he finally lets himself cry his heart out because he’s so lost and confused. “No. I can’t.”
URGH. MY KOKORO. The way this destroys them both but also fulfills them like nothing else. TT_TT
Maybe he’s found another place where he belongs, where he feels at home and like himself.
All the Baekyeol feels.
Tomorrow, they'll go back to their diets and methods to control their weights; tomorrow they'll go back to walking on the runway and standing in front of the camera under the flashing lights, stuck in the endless, vicious cycle of falling apart, but at least they’ve got each other to pick their broken pieces up and tape them back together again.
I really really really like this line.
IT IS PERFECT BLUU!
(Ok, I'll stop trying to quote everything and leave now >3<)
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EEEEK MY KOKORO AHHH I FEEL SO HONORED ;AAAAA;
EEEK I LOVE ALL OF YOUR QUOTES ;AAAAA;
I JUST
SMILING LIKE AN IDIOT TO MYSELF NOW LOL
THANK YOU SO MUCH ;AAAAA;
<3
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