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dinner tonight was . . a meeting! me, my mom, dad and billys old support conrernater went out to dinner! it was about 2 1/2 hours long! we were disscuaing billy! i wanted to cry soo bad cuz we were talking about how there is NO cure for his desise! =\ but i didnt cuz i learned how to "hold" my emotions back! i dont realli think ANYBODY has ever seen or known that i cry about him! its just SOO sadd ='[ we were talking about how when billy was 10 and he started reading really good! my parents took him out to a restruant cuz he could read the menu! he asked my parents if he could order ANYTHING he wanted, of course my parents said yes! well, it was a booth and my mom went in frist so my bro could sit at the edge! when we first walked in, my mom pulled the waiter aside and told him about billys desise! my mom had said to the waiter that since billy is ordering anything he wants, he has to look at my mother to see he she noddes yes or no! this wayy the waiter got to say no and not my mom without him no'ing!! it worked out great! =] then we started talking about billy now in the group home! we said that how he is going really well! lost 27 pounds and soo much more too go! andgera, now our freind, told my parents that they have done the BEST for billy! alot of parents think that if your put your child in a group home, that is the most horriable thing you could do! those parents are soo wrong! its the best thing you can do . . EVER! if you really love your child then you would want to help them! my mother said to andgrea that if anybody needed to talk to somebody that she could always give them our number! now, andgrea is SOOOOOOOOOOO wonderful! i really cant thank her enough! thats whyy my parents paid for her dinner!! =] my mother told her that she has done the best for so many people that we just wanted to reward her! well, andgrea had deal with over 200 clients! =] she now started her own business and took over other business's that the people just didnt wanna do anymore! andgrea had told us that you really need a heart to be what she is and she has the BIGGEST heart! =] from her childhood and everything going on in her life, im soo glad that we still talk! well, at dinner, my mom told me that frankie has a problem! i forget what its called but its wear he cannot sleep! i dunno, its a werid desige, now im just thinking, maybe there is something wrong with me . . . ?? anyways, we also talked about moving! =] i REALLY wanna! and this subject came upp cuz andgera asked me if i missed billy! i miss him soooooooooooo much! =] i really wish we could move so i could be closer to him! i no he is happy but i dunno, i dont see it so i dunno if its true or not! billy had moved all on his own, i mean, he new nobodyy! he went without his family OR friends and thats soooo hard!! im just soooo proud of him! i love his soo much and i wanna keep the relationship that i have with him!!!! we [are] sooo close!! umm . . we talked soo much more, i dunno, you really had to be there!