More random thoughts.

[sw3et_misery]

Labcore lady popped my tiny vein today.

So in the doctors today, while waiting for her to come in I had plenty of time to think. And I got to thinking about everyone I know is going to die. I dont know what part is worse, me knowing them when they die and loosing someone I care about, or not knowing them at all anymore, not even having to care about them dying because I didnt know. I wonder how much longer I have, and it sucks to think about how many people are REALLY actually going to miss me when I'm gone. miss ME being there all the time. School is big, a lot of people, and about almost every single person there isn't even going to notice when I'm gone. People move on and make new friends, even within one year, people you used to rely on move on and forget you. It's hard not knowing how long anyone has, and being able to let them know you love them and will miss them. I dont have a lot of people I am close to, a lot of people that really know ME, its hard to get close to people.

I am really tired, its just some thoughts.