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...sigh... sometimes, i wish none of this happened.. fer starters, i wouldn't be here writing this stupid thing.. i thought this was supposed to be a good thing, so why have i been crying? i wish you can read my mind.. is it so wrong to think that you should make it up to me? i'm not gonna give you anything on a silver platter.. and now i think you don't even understand at all.. we can't start all over cuz it's impossible.. too much has happened already.. is it wrong of me to expect you to be there fer me when i'm having a crappy day/week?
maybe this wasn't supposed to be.. maybe this was all a bad idea.. i realized that i'm starting to depend on you again and that's the worst thing i can do cuz who knows if you'll let me down again.. who knows if you'll walk out of my life again.. i wanna believe you.. i really really do.. but it's hard and it doesn't seem you understand that
if you don't understand how much it means to me.. then maybe you'll never understand..
what doesn't kill me onlee makes me stronger... right?
maybe this wasn't supposed to be.. maybe this was all a bad idea.. i realized that i'm starting to depend on you again and that's the worst thing i can do cuz who knows if you'll let me down again.. who knows if you'll walk out of my life again.. i wanna believe you.. i really really do.. but it's hard and it doesn't seem you understand that
if you don't understand how much it means to me.. then maybe you'll never understand..
what doesn't kill me onlee makes me stronger... right?