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So, things aren't the greatest, I'm very concerned about my position as the fat Canadian is clearly attempting to manoeuvre things into a position from where he can justifiably let me go. Up until about three hours ago I had several projects where I was Producer, Associate Producer or managing the platform relations for that title. Now I have one...where I'm only Associate Producer. For those who don't know the Associate Producer is a glorified title for "tea boy". It is a position from which you can watch Producers and learn what they do and assist them wherever you can and are told to. Mostly that's fetching the tea...
I'm spared that though as the Producer for the title is in Canada, so yea, basically I'm doing nothing right now because I only have anything to do should he delegate any tasks to me (which they seldom do because let's face it, we just don't trust people to do things right in our name do we?).
I'm concerned what will happen should I lose this job, I'm very very concerned in fact. I'm angry, and really want to destroy something, I'm not the sort that has a seething rage pent up inside, always had an explosive temper, however right now that is what I have. It is teh suck :-(.
Oana is at a seminar thingy today and tomorrow, learning mad Powerpoint skills. She's off the Germany in a week or so I think, and Turkey in a couple of weeks after that. The good thing about this sudden lack of work is I will be able to go home at normal times and spend time with her and Estella, however I won't really be happy should it get to the stage where I am at home all the time looking for a new job...
Why can't life just be fucking simple for a while? Couple of years is all I ask, normal hassles fine, but constantly something is what gets me down. Of course, it only gets me down for a short time before it starts getting me angry again. Ah well, whatever, shit happens, no point closing your eyes and praying it doesn't hit you in the face, just shut your mouth so you don't have to eat it as well.
I'm spared that though as the Producer for the title is in Canada, so yea, basically I'm doing nothing right now because I only have anything to do should he delegate any tasks to me (which they seldom do because let's face it, we just don't trust people to do things right in our name do we?).
I'm concerned what will happen should I lose this job, I'm very very concerned in fact. I'm angry, and really want to destroy something, I'm not the sort that has a seething rage pent up inside, always had an explosive temper, however right now that is what I have. It is teh suck :-(.
Oana is at a seminar thingy today and tomorrow, learning mad Powerpoint skills. She's off the Germany in a week or so I think, and Turkey in a couple of weeks after that. The good thing about this sudden lack of work is I will be able to go home at normal times and spend time with her and Estella, however I won't really be happy should it get to the stage where I am at home all the time looking for a new job...
Why can't life just be fucking simple for a while? Couple of years is all I ask, normal hassles fine, but constantly something is what gets me down. Of course, it only gets me down for a short time before it starts getting me angry again. Ah well, whatever, shit happens, no point closing your eyes and praying it doesn't hit you in the face, just shut your mouth so you don't have to eat it as well.