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i am so angry. i feel so used. i feel so stupid. fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you.
i cant remember the last time i cried this hard. i just want it to stop hurting. i hate you so fucking much. i hate everything ive ever given you. i hate ever part of me i let you have. i hate that you once had my heart. i hate that you had my kisses and my body.
i just want to get numb, i want to use, i want to drink, i want to cut. i just want to die.
fuck you joe. fuck you for everything. never again will you do this to me.
ohmygod this hurts so much. im crying so hard that nothing is coming out. i didnt need this. why did you have to do this to me. i didnt need this.
ive screamed into pillows. thrown up. punched walls and threw shit but nothing is easing this pain. i feel so alone. i just want to be held. i just want to know it will be okay.
please.