like a whisper in the breeze, i hear your chilling voice
you may not feel like reading this whole entry, but i guess i had to get it out. i suppose this is the pitty party entry that we all have lurking in our journals.
hey journal. not much of anything cool happened today. i went to the DMV to get my license, and alas, i have to wait six more months before i can do that. it makes me angry, but i think i'm over that. my CD player broke today. now i can't listen to music to save my soul from eternal boredom in music apreciation. ugh. and i got a call, as usual, from someone tonight. it started out okay, but things went bad. i won't say this person's name, because i love them dearly, and i don't want to hurt them. but with this person, i can't seem to escape my past. i have made some stupid decisions in my day, but hasn't everyone? that's just how we grow. but why do you have to bring my bad decisions up again and use them to make yourself look big? i know you are smart. you are older, so you'll know what i'm going through at the time, but you can't do this to me. i can't stand it when people can't forget about the past. God told us to forgive and FoRgEt! and i'm one who stands beside that. i'm a pretty forgiving person, and i don't usually hold grudges, at least i try my best. maybe sometimes someone hurts me and it's hard, but for every little thing? i've been wrong about some people. but i've also been right. people you would never expect to be really awesome become your best friends. (i learned that the hard way believe it or not)and they really are good, true friends who stand beside you, help you when you hurt, and laugh with you when you are happy. and i love my friends. if this person is reading this, i hope you listen. and i don't mean to hurt you. but i can't go on living like this. i have to be allowed to live, and so do those around me. please...i love you.
like a whisper in the breeze,
i hear your chilling voice.
you call to my attention
every negative choice.
if you love me so much,
why do you torture me so?
how am i to learn?
how am i to grow?
♥love you♥
hey journal. not much of anything cool happened today. i went to the DMV to get my license, and alas, i have to wait six more months before i can do that. it makes me angry, but i think i'm over that. my CD player broke today. now i can't listen to music to save my soul from eternal boredom in music apreciation. ugh. and i got a call, as usual, from someone tonight. it started out okay, but things went bad. i won't say this person's name, because i love them dearly, and i don't want to hurt them. but with this person, i can't seem to escape my past. i have made some stupid decisions in my day, but hasn't everyone? that's just how we grow. but why do you have to bring my bad decisions up again and use them to make yourself look big? i know you are smart. you are older, so you'll know what i'm going through at the time, but you can't do this to me. i can't stand it when people can't forget about the past. God told us to forgive and FoRgEt! and i'm one who stands beside that. i'm a pretty forgiving person, and i don't usually hold grudges, at least i try my best. maybe sometimes someone hurts me and it's hard, but for every little thing? i've been wrong about some people. but i've also been right. people you would never expect to be really awesome become your best friends. (i learned that the hard way believe it or not)and they really are good, true friends who stand beside you, help you when you hurt, and laugh with you when you are happy. and i love my friends. if this person is reading this, i hope you listen. and i don't mean to hurt you. but i can't go on living like this. i have to be allowed to live, and so do those around me. please...i love you.
like a whisper in the breeze,
i hear your chilling voice.
you call to my attention
every negative choice.
if you love me so much,
why do you torture me so?
how am i to learn?
how am i to grow?
♥love you♥