old habits die hard
still fighting the uphill battle to be able to trust anyone. losing that battle miserably.
I had hoped that in deciding not to go abroad this semester I'd be able to sort all of my shit out... well it doesn't look like I'll accomplish that.
whatev. there's less drama, which is good. but then all I have to focus on is the stuff I need to do differently.
sorry for the cryptic. I can't/ don't want to really get into it here. I just need to get some of this stuff out. because the truth is, I don't really know how to talk about it. When I was in UA... I was surrounded by amazing girls who wanted to help... and I was able to let them in. now that I'm im woo... I'm again surrounded by wonderful people who want to be able to help... bu I just can't seem to be able to let them in. maybe I've learned from past mistakes, maybe I've just gotten scared.
I dunno. I guess its just random late night contemplation that will most likely be deleted tomorrow.
take care, all.
I had hoped that in deciding not to go abroad this semester I'd be able to sort all of my shit out... well it doesn't look like I'll accomplish that.
whatev. there's less drama, which is good. but then all I have to focus on is the stuff I need to do differently.
sorry for the cryptic. I can't/ don't want to really get into it here. I just need to get some of this stuff out. because the truth is, I don't really know how to talk about it. When I was in UA... I was surrounded by amazing girls who wanted to help... and I was able to let them in. now that I'm im woo... I'm again surrounded by wonderful people who want to be able to help... bu I just can't seem to be able to let them in. maybe I've learned from past mistakes, maybe I've just gotten scared.
I dunno. I guess its just random late night contemplation that will most likely be deleted tomorrow.
take care, all.