humility v. humanity
so i had this amazing conversation earlier. you know that every once in a while you have like this defining moment where you are not sure if you are crying or smiling but you know that you are doing both. i was reading a post by a fellow lj-er. i knew him pretty well but really not at all. we went to the same college, shared mutual friends, and also nights of alcoholic debauchury (sp). this post was like a conversation i should have had with myself. very honest and true pointing out all the things with himself that he had hidden from himself and had not even realized. it was amazing to see that the main ideals are the same for everyone and the situations that we think to be unique are actually somewhat universal. i get in to these funks where i can be surrounded by people who know and love me with everything that they have and i am still so painstakingly alone and lonely it makes my insides hurt. i was going through a bout of this recently and in LJ this rash of a 20 questions game went round and round. it was amazing the things that were let loose, so then i decided to do it also. i started out pretty meek and then just let the flood gates go. i realized that i didn't want to keep these things in and how amazing it was to just let it go. anyway i thought it was a nice way to showcase the humility in our everyday lives in a positive manner. ir was good to get to know some of my friends better and open that door to those i may not know so well yet. if you can't see the 20 q post from me, i did mark it private. i am not ready for that much humility yet.