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[suzgirl2006]

I know what you're all thinking, SUZI HASN'T UPDATED IN MONTHS! Haven't had anything to tell anyone really. But I would just like to announce that I am in love! Completely and utterly in love with Dylan Lawson! For those of you who don't know Dylan was at my house for the past four days! I have to say those were the best four days of my life! I've never felt more safe, secure, loved, cherished, in my entire life. I felt like the queen of the universe. Or at least Dylan's universe. I've never been more happy in my life. I'm sorry for those of you who I've ignored or been a bit stand-offish towards because of Dylan. But it was so hard not getting to see him. Now that I have I don't know what to do? I can't live without him. I'm sleeping in the bed that he slept in tonight because I have that hooked. I have his sweater on even though it's like 90 degrees. I have his class ring around my neck, and I have tigger who holds much sentimental value to us sprayed with his axe. Yeah I know axe is axe. But it's his axe, and it smells like him still in here. The bus station today was horrible. I was a mess. Actually I've been a mess all day. I know you're all thinking, you're only 16 how can you be in love. But if you could only imagine how I feel right now. I don't know how to do anything. I mean I tried watching tv. But I remembered sitting on my sofa cuddling with Dylan watching Phantom of the Opera in my dressing gown and pj's with major bedhead, and Dylan still made me feel beautiful. Every time I do my "nose thing" as Dylan calls it and says it's cute but I think it's dumb I will think of him. Every time my eyes change I will think of him because Dyland always pointed out how my eyes were really green when I was excited or when I looked at him with my "I love you" look, or how they got dark when I was sad, when we talked about him leaving. My eyes will never be that green until I see him again. Olive Garden will remind me of him, the movies, arby's, work (he loves Ritter's now), hell even school will because he went to graduation with me. I couldn't eat today because I felt so sick knowing that the love of my life was leaving me. And I didn't know when I would next get to see him. But I will, I promise you all, see him very soon. I wish you all to have this feeling, because it feels wonderful. I'm sorry for being so mushy but I want to climb Mt. Everest right now and scream it. But I guess this will have to do. I LOVE DYLAN LAWSON! AND I WILL FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE! Well I'll save you all any more torment. Want any details call me, you all know the number.

Love you all (especially Dylan),
Suz