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i'm failing at life.
i didn't spend enough time with julie before i left, i didn't hand in my outline for my final paper for my independent study so i can at least get an incomplete, i gave up and took a no-eval in stream ecology, i left my dorm room a complete and horrific disgusting mess, and when i finally got home tonight, i almost immediately got into a fight with my mom which ended with her screaming at me and storming off.
great.
i'm overwhelmed. there's too many directions to go. my parents just want me to not fall on my face, my grandmother wants me to be a chaste, respectful, proper young lady, my brother wants me to be less embarrassing, justin wants me to be content, joe wants me to be a professional glassworker, christina wants me to be a research hydrologist, lesy wants me to be a cutthroat journalist, roberta wants me to be a hairdresser, amanda wants me to be a better intern, al wants me to be a sous chef, mitch wants me to be a candlewood east lifer, will wants me to be a good, honorable writer, my mom's parents want me to find God...
and i want...?
too much, that's what.
i didn't spend enough time with julie before i left, i didn't hand in my outline for my final paper for my independent study so i can at least get an incomplete, i gave up and took a no-eval in stream ecology, i left my dorm room a complete and horrific disgusting mess, and when i finally got home tonight, i almost immediately got into a fight with my mom which ended with her screaming at me and storming off.
great.
i'm overwhelmed. there's too many directions to go. my parents just want me to not fall on my face, my grandmother wants me to be a chaste, respectful, proper young lady, my brother wants me to be less embarrassing, justin wants me to be content, joe wants me to be a professional glassworker, christina wants me to be a research hydrologist, lesy wants me to be a cutthroat journalist, roberta wants me to be a hairdresser, amanda wants me to be a better intern, al wants me to be a sous chef, mitch wants me to be a candlewood east lifer, will wants me to be a good, honorable writer, my mom's parents want me to find God...
and i want...?
too much, that's what.