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i don't know what motivation i had this morning waking up at 7:30 am. i think im secretly on crack. but anyways, now that i have like 4 hours to kill..
i've been meaning to update this, really guys i have, i've just been soooo busy. the musical is going really good. i really like it, there hasn't been any major problems, atleast not yet. exept that cally has missed a couple practices, but she catches on good. other than that, things are going really good in there. i love is so much. and i think the director really likes me, we seem to have this strange bondage or w/e. which, i no this soundz really selfish, is a good thing for future productions. i guess that's just how theature runs. it's a horrible thing, but it's true all the same.
boy department at the moment, i'm actually..really happy. i like this kid at my school. i haven't even thought about talking to matt in a week. it's a good thing really. but i'm not so sure as it should be. after all, me and matt were together for so long, and we have so many memories, such history, and if i were to go back, i no exactly what i'd be getting into. with steve, i dont know no what to expect. exept the stuff i already no, but in an actual relationship, if it turns into one of course. and it's not like i've totally forgot about matt, a part of him will always be with me as far as i'm concerned. it's just, something feels right.. maybe it's just me. i've grown so much, maybe i need a change in my personal life too.
well i'm hanging out with steve today. you know what's awesome? every friday and saterday night, i can pretty much guarentee that matt will be online so i can talk to him. he usually getz on a lil after 11 ( a lil after 10 there ) but instead of being online and talking to matt, i was on the phone will steve for like 2 hours. i didn't even realize it till i got off the phone. i don't think i've ever done that in the year and 8 months i've known/liked matt.
maybe that means something... maybe i desperatley need to talk to cally this morning also.
^yupp that's it.
i think i'll prolly call amanda too..
hmm..
i've been meaning to update this, really guys i have, i've just been soooo busy. the musical is going really good. i really like it, there hasn't been any major problems, atleast not yet. exept that cally has missed a couple practices, but she catches on good. other than that, things are going really good in there. i love is so much. and i think the director really likes me, we seem to have this strange bondage or w/e. which, i no this soundz really selfish, is a good thing for future productions. i guess that's just how theature runs. it's a horrible thing, but it's true all the same.
boy department at the moment, i'm actually..really happy. i like this kid at my school. i haven't even thought about talking to matt in a week. it's a good thing really. but i'm not so sure as it should be. after all, me and matt were together for so long, and we have so many memories, such history, and if i were to go back, i no exactly what i'd be getting into. with steve, i dont know no what to expect. exept the stuff i already no, but in an actual relationship, if it turns into one of course. and it's not like i've totally forgot about matt, a part of him will always be with me as far as i'm concerned. it's just, something feels right.. maybe it's just me. i've grown so much, maybe i need a change in my personal life too.
well i'm hanging out with steve today. you know what's awesome? every friday and saterday night, i can pretty much guarentee that matt will be online so i can talk to him. he usually getz on a lil after 11 ( a lil after 10 there ) but instead of being online and talking to matt, i was on the phone will steve for like 2 hours. i didn't even realize it till i got off the phone. i don't think i've ever done that in the year and 8 months i've known/liked matt.
maybe that means something... maybe i desperatley need to talk to cally this morning also.
^yupp that's it.
i think i'll prolly call amanda too..
hmm..