ANGRY
Okay... Last night Chris Paas called and was trying to be all cool. He told me he had my back and he wanted to tell me something. Then he told me that Ben the guy I like was having sex with this girl named Melinda. (He kinda has a history with Melinda but I'm pretty sure he wouldn't have sex with her) Well that made me really angry and sad and seriously right now I have no idea what I'm going to do. I like Ben so much and I just don't know anymore. Everyone who I consider my good friends hate him, but I really do like him. I mean I'll be sitting in class and all I can think about is the next time I'll get to see him. I dunno though... everyone seems to be so made at me for liking him but he isn't that bad of a guy. (Well at least i dont think he is)I'm so lost and confused and yeah I just don't know anymore. I really feel like crying but I just can't. I promised myself I wouldn't get hurt this time so I haven't tried to like him as much anymore (and so far I don't but I still like him so much and every time I hang out with him the liking feels so much stronger) God this sucks. Well I'm going to go.