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so i sit here with exactly 13 minutes left until the bell rings. right now my life is to both extremes of living life to the most and feeling like it is monotonous. sometimes i'm in such a good mood, loving nature and life and love and friends, and opportunites that i've finally chosen to take, but other moments i feel as if what i'm doing now, getting home late every night, only going there to occassionally grab some food and sleep is not allowing me to relax and to think and making everything seem so endless. i've decided to focus on certain things, like going to seattle over thanksgiving, or seeing my love and friends every weekend, so that i feel like there's always something for me to work toward, to be excited about, to slow down and think about when everything starts to get monotonous again. i hope i can do what karen says i can when i finally finish college. i hope i'll be able to keep my life interesting.
another thing that plagues my mind is that everyone is choosing to be engaged and get married right out of highschool and i wonder what i think about it. i think i know what i want, but i'll always be too afraid to ever state it.
in general though, despite my incessant whining, my life is good and happy. school is easy and an entertainment. work either drags on or goes by too fast, but i still get paid. i have money now to do what i want most of the time. i miss laz taylor with all of my heart. i can't wait to see her this thanksgiving. my parents are letting my go, too. my mom wants me too, and my dad is a little reluctant but they both believe that it will be a "good experience" for me. i agree. it's something i've always wanted to do, a place i've always wanted to go. my family almost lived there, before they chose to live here, of all places. oh, the irony.
i really love the snakes on a plane (bring it) theme song by cobra starship, the lead singer from the academy is, the lead singer from gym class heroes, and whoever else made it so wonderful.
i love love. i'm such a romantic. i never thought i was. i guess i am.
another thing that plagues my mind is that everyone is choosing to be engaged and get married right out of highschool and i wonder what i think about it. i think i know what i want, but i'll always be too afraid to ever state it.
in general though, despite my incessant whining, my life is good and happy. school is easy and an entertainment. work either drags on or goes by too fast, but i still get paid. i have money now to do what i want most of the time. i miss laz taylor with all of my heart. i can't wait to see her this thanksgiving. my parents are letting my go, too. my mom wants me too, and my dad is a little reluctant but they both believe that it will be a "good experience" for me. i agree. it's something i've always wanted to do, a place i've always wanted to go. my family almost lived there, before they chose to live here, of all places. oh, the irony.
i really love the snakes on a plane (bring it) theme song by cobra starship, the lead singer from the academy is, the lead singer from gym class heroes, and whoever else made it so wonderful.
i love love. i'm such a romantic. i never thought i was. i guess i am.