One-shot~ YabuHika: Bonded
yes,since I started writing fanfics with an angst~I decided that I will always start my comebacks with an angst!!hehehehe so here it is enjoy~ oh and please since I used to be a writer in fanfiction.net I'd use this abused words~ "READ AND REVIEW" hahaha ya~comments are loved right?:P oh my god~ yuto I love your sexy,lanky body~yuto and yabu should do a sexy,cool perf together~!!and I love hikaru on the middle:D and keito's hair and I love how yabu and yuto were always focused!and,and,and of course I love Inoo-chan~ <3 hahaha gomen I sort of blabber there because of SC's beat line perf that was yes no matter how cliched this sounds - it's flawless.
We were perfect for each other, we've been together since the start of our long struggle, we were for each other. Our friendship is something many people around us were envious, we were the best of friends, yes, the BEST. But not long after we realized that we were each other's significant one that our relationship soon turned into that of lovers.Those were the best days of our lives. we rarely had a problem because we both knew our own - as well as each other's strength and weaknesses kept within ourselves. We both understood each other without the need of words, we both supported each other to remain strong.You needed to be strong because other people leaned on you for support and I needed to be strong because when everybody's gone and it's just the two of us, you ran to me for support. You trusted me, you always ran to me whenever you felt like you couldn't hold on anymore, you ran to me first and foremost whenever you felt happy. We share each other's pain and happiness. You were always kind and gentle to everyone, you're funny, helpful and determined while I'm cold, intimidating and cruel. But each other's presence balanced each other's personality. You have an overwhelming personality and I have an overbearing personality but no one complained because it always looked normal because we're always together.
....but you're gone. You died. You left me and everyone else who needed you. You left without a single word of 'goodbye', you left when you finally put a ring on my left ring finger, you left when I thought that we would be together for the rest of our lives - that hurts, I felt betrayed, I got my hopes up on spending the rest of my life with you. I thought you would always be around to balance my overbearing personality, and now people misunderstood my dark, cruel aura because your cheerful aura is not here anymore to overwhelm mine. I could always hear whispers whenever I pass the halls. They say that i don't love you because i don't look that sad, they say that i was never worthy of your love, they say that it's better now because you're out of my grasp now. Is that true Kou? That you're better of without me? That you're happy now? No,right? Because you said that you love me and I know that it's true, I feel that it's true. But I've been learning so much things now own my own that maybe I'm better off this way. I learned about fear, fear that I never really know before because you were always there for me, you can always see through me and now i fear that no one could ever understand me anymore because you're the only one who knew that there is a single white rose amidst the red roses that surrounds it and it signifies my true fragile self and frail emotions despite my cold and cruel facade that I put on. I learned that I need you, I need you more that anyone, more than anything. I need you like air that I could barely breathe without you. Our home became a simple house with no warmth at all. My own person became nothing and I became a simple being waiting for a pained eternity. And yes, I learned that I couldn't live without you. what's the point in living forever, if it is not with the man I love?*
And so I pulled a sharp pocket knife at my desk drawer and struck it on my stomach, no need to bother about the pain because I know that soon we'd be together again and everything would return to the way it is....
....I'll see you soon,Kou.
*the line 'What is the point in living forever,if it is not with the wo[man] I love?' came from Michael scott's book, I guess it's the Necromancer:)) from the series, The Secrets of the Immortal nicholas Flamel. such a wonderful series I should say!:)))
I'll wait for your comments! I know it's ugly and short but oh well~:)))
We were perfect for each other, we've been together since the start of our long struggle, we were for each other. Our friendship is something many people around us were envious, we were the best of friends, yes, the BEST. But not long after we realized that we were each other's significant one that our relationship soon turned into that of lovers.Those were the best days of our lives. we rarely had a problem because we both knew our own - as well as each other's strength and weaknesses kept within ourselves. We both understood each other without the need of words, we both supported each other to remain strong.You needed to be strong because other people leaned on you for support and I needed to be strong because when everybody's gone and it's just the two of us, you ran to me for support. You trusted me, you always ran to me whenever you felt like you couldn't hold on anymore, you ran to me first and foremost whenever you felt happy. We share each other's pain and happiness. You were always kind and gentle to everyone, you're funny, helpful and determined while I'm cold, intimidating and cruel. But each other's presence balanced each other's personality. You have an overwhelming personality and I have an overbearing personality but no one complained because it always looked normal because we're always together.
....but you're gone. You died. You left me and everyone else who needed you. You left without a single word of 'goodbye', you left when you finally put a ring on my left ring finger, you left when I thought that we would be together for the rest of our lives - that hurts, I felt betrayed, I got my hopes up on spending the rest of my life with you. I thought you would always be around to balance my overbearing personality, and now people misunderstood my dark, cruel aura because your cheerful aura is not here anymore to overwhelm mine. I could always hear whispers whenever I pass the halls. They say that i don't love you because i don't look that sad, they say that i was never worthy of your love, they say that it's better now because you're out of my grasp now. Is that true Kou? That you're better of without me? That you're happy now? No,right? Because you said that you love me and I know that it's true, I feel that it's true. But I've been learning so much things now own my own that maybe I'm better off this way. I learned about fear, fear that I never really know before because you were always there for me, you can always see through me and now i fear that no one could ever understand me anymore because you're the only one who knew that there is a single white rose amidst the red roses that surrounds it and it signifies my true fragile self and frail emotions despite my cold and cruel facade that I put on. I learned that I need you, I need you more that anyone, more than anything. I need you like air that I could barely breathe without you. Our home became a simple house with no warmth at all. My own person became nothing and I became a simple being waiting for a pained eternity. And yes, I learned that I couldn't live without you. what's the point in living forever, if it is not with the man I love?*
And so I pulled a sharp pocket knife at my desk drawer and struck it on my stomach, no need to bother about the pain because I know that soon we'd be together again and everything would return to the way it is....
....I'll see you soon,Kou.
*the line 'What is the point in living forever,if it is not with the wo[man] I love?' came from Michael scott's book, I guess it's the Necromancer:)) from the series, The Secrets of the Immortal nicholas Flamel. such a wonderful series I should say!:)))
I'll wait for your comments! I know it's ugly and short but oh well~:)))